Goodness. Last night i dreamt that I failed chemistry!! Like in classroom, then Mr Tan gave me back chem papers and i got 49!! Omg. Then it's like i'll wake up and calm myself down, then dream the same thing again! It happened 3 times. Wah lau. Promos are still haunting me =( See chem department is sadistic and they should all commit suicide.

Haiz. i am annoyed. One of my fish is sick and i prepared nice clean water last night so that i can change today and my stupid annoying sister go and take the water to change the water of her tank. Wah lau she is some stupid ass okay if my fish die she's gonna live with guilt forever.

=D Happy people. Ah well i'm leaving in about 15 minutes time so gotta go bathe and stuff yawnz. I feel dirty i didn't bathe since before chem paper yesterday LOLOLOL. xD

Wah xian chem paper is lau sai inducing please. But wubber who cares PROMOS ARE OVER!! Wheeeeeeee. I didn't go out though, went home and almost zzZZzzz on my sister's bed (after saying hi and secretly sniggering coz she had exam in afternoon) until my dad came and called me to go for lunch. So i had super yummy lunch at fish and co. then uhh went to see some apartment at newton before going centrepoint where my mum went shopping and i ate some more at haagan dazs. Oh i'm a pig but who cares promos are over okay. There's reason to celebrate.

The nap in the afternoon was SO juicy omgosh i haven't slept in afternoons for eons. I usually don't and can't but i simply tak boleh tahan then just -poink- and fell asleep in the bed. Dinner was crap somehow the fish my maid cooked for me was like eat salted meat or something so i left it alone and just ate grapes. Anyway i was super full from lunch and tea (which occurred within like 2 hours of each other).

WOOHOO PROMOS ARE OVER!! But now the mad rush for open house. Sigh and i realised i have ZERO free days next week. Annoying. Monday got PW thingie, tuesday got physics h3 (OH MY GOD), wed hmm.. chorale prac (will send out an email soon) thursday rehearsals for open house (will be in the email) and friday open house itself (also in there). Wahhhhhh. -Screams- Everyone seriously please go and memorize and rememorize ALL the songs before wednesday afternoon or not we'll all just plonk and die and forget and burst and screw up and NOW that's now what we want right?? =) Right.

I am going to be a pig and sleep some more now. Goodnight world! Happy people must smile =D

Oh Em Gee. Burst maths confirm minus 13 marks liao LOL. Coz i completely forgot how to do the DE question so that's like 6 marks gone -.- Then some other qn like qn 5 also dunno so -4. Then the qn14 calculate area i burst also so -3 so yar like -6-4-3 = -13.

Bleh. One more paper to go. Yay. Then maybe i can finally sleep properly. Although i was how tired and slept at 12am last night i could hardly sleep throughout the night lor =( It's really quite annoying how I know i need the sleep to be able to do exams properly, but yet my own mind refuses to give it because it's so busy worrying over the exams. -.- Annoying.

Sigh alright 1 more paper to go yay. Chemistry omg i got E for CTs i wonder what i'll get this time. Better go and study and hopefully pull my grades up man. Everyone go study. yay. We're happy people. o.O

"The student's hand is broken". What does this statement mean? [12]

OMG econs can die ah. My hand is seriously dying after writing non stop for so long. But wah lau i think i'm still going to fail please i shouldn't have bothered studying la. Study also burst. Okay. So now i'm skeptical. Should i study for physics???

I tell you, when i have kids i'm going to make all of them ambidextrous ah. Force them to learn to write with both hands. Then when they grow up do econs essay can write with both hands, then won't have so much pain in one hand. Now it's like how painful (and yet i'm still busy typing away) and i don't feel like practising physics or yar, using my brain. All my brain juice got squeezed dry already.

Bang sai. Haiyar okay i shall go and do something productive. Just printed out the physics 2006 CT paper and maybe i'll actually not waste paper and ink and go and attempt it. Da bian. Wish me luck. tata!!

Hahahaha i just remembered a joke i made a while ago. It's quite bad but okay here goes. May not be funny. Warn you first.

So benjamin and i were sitting in my car, and he was trying to sing something but CMI then so..

Chris: "Oi use the consonants to harness the air pressure like what Mr Toh says."

Ben tries to sing and succeeds

Chris: "See, it works. Always remember, consonants are your friends.. so you should???"

Ben thinks but doesn't come up with the answer.

Chris: "Make use of them la!"

Heeeeeee xD. Okay it was super funny when i said it we both burst out laughing like crazy in the car. Anyway, that was a JOKE. No it's bad to make use of friends, or anybody for that matter. =) Okay.

GP paper today was crappy i totally screwed up essay, i should have done the lemon lemonade qn la at least if i screw up then it'll be an amusing essay. Tch. k nevermind. Hopefully compre can salvage lor. =(

KK back to econs now. Wish me luck i haven't studied everything up to market failure. A for econs here i come!!!!!

Omg burst i keep having bleeding nose every morning like these few days during study break. I think being at home causes me to not move a lot so like i'm too lazy to get water to drink. Yikes! Cannot cannot. All the exams are in the morning it's gonna be like how weird and annoying if i get bleeding nose and bleed all over my paper. Wahaha then can say i vomit blood when i saw the GP questions =P

K so anyway i'm like really bursted for promos because my studying rate has been like damn slow like 0< dy/dy <1. Then my ionic product is less than my Ksp so whatever i try to study just doesn't go in because my brain is SATURATED.

So okay someone give me ammonium chloride maybe stuff will start to dissolve -.-

I've been eating ice cream non stop ever since wednesday like lunch will eat, dinner will eat, depressed will eat. Maybe on monday when u guys see me you'll go o.O because i put on a lot of weight? I don't know haven't actually weighed myself. Can you imagine next year A levels? It's like when i'm xian of studying the only thing that can bring happiness and pleasure is eating something nice and cold which makes you feel 'good' so yes ice cream is what i eat. Siiigh i am going to explode.

Anyway last Saturday went for a random blood test and urine test and dunno what rubbish stuff then like my heart rate is apparently only 48 beats/min. So then went to see the doctor right, coz it was the nurse who took the thing. Then first thing he said 'Wah! Your heart rate is really low you know. Very unusually low.' then i was like thinking 'oh no am i dying?'. Then he went on the say 'Only very very fit people like athletes have such low heart rates.' and my brain went WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. and my eyes went o.O.o.O.o.O. K then doctor went on to say 'do you exercise a lot?' and my brain went WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Then so i answered him 'no??????'. Yar so okay i was damn amused. I concluded afterwards that because i took the test at like 8am and i was like half asleep, i was probably on the way to falling asleep on the bed that they took the heart rate that's why my heart beat slowed down. Or maybe i'm just dying. Apparently normal people's heart rate range from 60-100.

Then went back to get the results on tuesday, and as usual my cholesterol level is supremely high, apparently even higher than last time. It's not totally my fault because it's some genetic thing, like my dad has it and all my siblings have it but mine's the worst. There's like good and bad cholesterol, and my bad one is 43% above normal. -gasps-. Yar. So then doctor says i need to go on medication. Omgodz. Maybe i AM dying. So i asked him what i can do like myself, other than eating medicine. Then he said 'i can't really think of anything.. oh! exercise lor!' and once again my brain went WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Okay so now that doctor has ordered me to exercise maybe it's time i move my butt and do something. =( Haiyar okay i should anyway. Kk post promos. For now, ICE CREAM GALORE!!!!

C'zhao says:
yo bro

C'zhao says:
art thou slacking off again?

C'zhao says:
back to the books u go!

C'zhao says:
cha!

C'zhao says:
oh hello

C'zhao says:
eh u copy cat

C'zhao says:
:D

C'zhao says:
teehee

C'zhao says:
there's 4 of us leh

C'zhao says:
!!

C'zhao says:
ehh ya lor

C'zhao says:
stupid.

C'zhao says:
muaha


-.- The lameness of my dearest sister who's so happy because she just bought 9 parrot fishes. Haha. Okay like randomness i'm not going to blog much since phantom people seem to be reading my blog and not acknowledging so i'm scared. -cough cough-

MSN messenger has unceremoniously forced me to 'upgrade' (against my will) to Windows Live messenger. And it's super annoying please. I downloaded and installed in, and when i signed in, all my groups were alllll over the place. Like people who didn't belong in Chorale group were there, my class was named as "OG" and my OG was like "Comm" or something and the comm groups was totally missing? And like the worst thing was i went to nicely swap them around and added this added that blah blah blah then i signed out, and signed back in and like they happily did major reshuffling for me again -.- Super annoying lor. Then OKAY i reshuffled again, and finally (so far) after resetting it my stuff didn't shift. Rawr. And the stupid display picture keeps reverting back to some chair. But hopefully it's okay now. See that was why i didn't want to change to windows live. K neverrrmind.

Anyway today wasn't as waste time as i thought it would be. Econs lecture was fairly useful, GP was supposed to be not useful and spend time and library doing summary/AQ while our teacher gave consultation to people who wanted. Then happen that while walking to library i met her on the way to give consultation to my classmate then she said that she had the 2nd slot (coz she can meet 2 people in 1 period) free so she asked me to meet her. Yay. Okay so seems like my thesis statements are giving me problems, and my arguments are like hit and go and i tend to focus on examples, so that's obviously wrong. Then chem lecture was er, liddat lor just go through some random stuff. And PE was survey so yay i left at like 11.10 and my school day ended =D.

Kk parents just got home from M'sia so going to eat lunch now. Tata!!

Yayy my fighting fish are happy. Well, at least 3 out of 4 of them are. The 3 of them are eating whatever i feed them really enthusiastically. I suspect the 2 new ones i bought must have been underfed or never fed such good food (relatively) that whatever i feed them must taste really nice and yummy. And the new pink male one is happy because he blew a bubble nest =D Yayy. But the older male one is probably not that happy coz he's still just lounging around and not really doing much. At least he's starting to eat more hee. Haiz, but the problematic female is actually i suspect simply too pampered. Because she eats all the yummy live worms but ignores the dried food. Well i can't possibly have live worms all the time, they all died this morning so if she doesn't eat, she's gonna die =(

Anyway. It's thursday, time obviously flies. And i think i am going to die for promos. I feel slightly inspired to study though because i successfully did my oscillations tutorial last night, and understood P&C today! Yay. Maybe there is hope after all =D. Anyway lately i've grown fond of eating assorted chocolates. I can't remember the brand but it's sold in 7 11 and i especially like the chocolates with almonds inside =D. Hee. But i like the raisins too they're cute. And nice. And yummy, and keeps me awake in class. Oops. Ok anyway..

Today is a happy day. Yesterday was a happy day too. I went for lunch with parents and sister at Ding Tai Feng and ate like a pig. We ordered like 16 xiao long baos then after we finished i was still.. not full =P So we ordered 6 more then they gave some free thingie with peanuts inside which was nice too and we also ordered the red bean dessert thingie so i almost exploded after that. But it was yummy. Haiz. I'm seriously turning into a pig, but it's okay. It's promos =) Dad says later tonight he'll bring me to island creamery WAHAHAHAHAA. Okay he'll bring all 3 of us there yay. Okay so i better go mug and earn the right to eat ice cream and put on weight (HA).

Bye bye and good luck everyone! Stay happy and cheerful xD

I suddenly realise permutations and combinations is so confusing after trying to do the tutorial. And my stupidity doesn't help.

[x!n.y|~*] says:
11ii?

C'zhao -round round round round (like a record!)- says:
number of ways to arrange, taking EEE as 1 unit is 6! right

[x!n.y|~*] says:
yup

C'zhao -round round round round (like a record!)- says:
then EEE can arrange 6 different ways is it

[x!n.y|~*] says:
noo.. its all the same!

xD. Yes okay so after school today i went to an aquarium. And i bought a pair of fighting fishes! They're so pretty, pink almost silver and errr a bit transparent at some parts. But they're still quite small i think, gotta let them grow bigger before attempting to let them mate or something. Oh my, if they do succeed then i'll have hundreds of fighting fishes. So cute!! I bought live worms too, and fed them to my red female fish AND SHE ATE. Omgosh. She gobbled them all up like a pig. So she's just been a brat and not eating dried food all these while -.- Whadda pig. Anyway yar it must taste really nice coz i fed it to all of them and they all ate like it was beef steak or something. =)

Okay. I am desperately trying to finish tutorial 9. So okay i'll end here. Tata! Oh btw, chem SPA was stressful. Not as bad as mock but heh. Still. =D Teachers staring at you while you try to.. do stuff.. Can't say what!!!!!

-a few minutes later-

C'zhao -round round round round (like a record!)- says:
SHAT

C'zhao -round round round round (like a record!)- says:
I GIVE UP

C'zhao -round round round round (like a record!)- says:
I ASK U TOMORROW

C'zhao -round round round round (like a record!)- says:
THEN U DRAW NICE NICE FOR ME OKAY?

C'zhao -round round round round (like a record!)- says:
OKAY?????

[x!n.y|~*] says:
orh..

I can't remember what i've done today. Like seriously. I think i hardly did anything. Getting very distracted by my fighting fishes. Recently my dad got a female fighting fish to mate with the male, but she looks weird. Vaguely bloated could be due to like a huge amount of eggs in her belly (which would be good hee) or she's sick. But bad thing is that the bulge seems to be on one side only? And she's not eating lehh.. I very scared. Don't want her to die, though she cost $1.50 but that's not the point. She's still a living being. Bleh. Okay nevermind see how it goes.

So it's the end of the holidays. Crap. Oh and i just realised yahoogroups is like quite noob and lag so i've decided to send email to yahoogroups straight from the egroups website instead of through my email, coz like i sent one last night and then today i got an email saying that my email was delayed (like wth) and that i wouldn't have to resend and just wait patiently. So i did, and nothing happened so i wubbered it and went to the egroups website to post. Wahaha. Anyway.

I suddenly feel like i'm very dead for promos. Maybe i'll get another DEAD. Then i'll be very sad. But haiz. Okay so the only way to solve the problem is to go and study. =( Easy to say hor. Haiyarrrrrz. K i shall stop complaining now. Oh! I went to church today after like a million years.

-10 years later-

I just belatedly realised i have chem SPA tomorrow. So i am desperately mugging for it now. So i am stopping here. Ciao!

Wah Lau bang sai i'm studying damn slowly la. Omgosh i think i'm going to die. Shit shit shit. How? And like only 1 day left of holidays then school start liao. Dammit. But yet i don't really feel very panicked or annoyed with myself either. I think it's like the psychological thinking that i've 2 weeks left to study. But then again that's not a lot either. So like WHY am i not worrying yet?

-faints-

Once again, i had something to blog about but i cannot remember it anymore. Oh dear. Maybe i'm turning into a goldfish and my memory only lasts for 3 seconds long. =( Sigh. I can't wait for promos to end actually. Then 3 whole months of vague freedom. Not counting PW which seems to actually be going not that bad for my group. Tonight need to tidy up the written report and throw in our interview stuff (which we just got a few days ago yay!) then can liao. Ah wellz. Sigh. I think maths is getting super xian for me. AP GP is fine but i completely don't understand summation and mathematical induction. Like completely totally don't understand. Someone save me. Help. -.-

Okay i shan't whine about studying and go and try to actually get something done. Bleh. Good luck world. See ya all soon.

Ouch i feel extremely stupid right now. I wanted to reset the router/modem, which are in my brother's room. So since it's like dark now and i couldn't be bothered to turn on the lights, i walked to his room and slammed right into the door because i didn't realise it was closed. Shat. My hand hurts now.

Anyway i've deduced that i'm mugging at such a slow pace, my brain might actually be degenerating instead of improving, and i suspect a snail will get bored with me. So. I shall make new friends with unicellular organisms then maybe i'll have someone on the same level as me to say hi to =)

I am totally in love with verbum supernum prodiens! Omgosh. I found this magical version online, sung by the world youth choir in 1999. It's seriously good. Hm don't know where the link is but i have the mp3 though. Ah okay i keep putting it on repeat. And like when i'm bored i go and look at the scores to analyse them -.- I think i've recently found this fetish for analyzing scores wahaha. It's really quite fun (to me) to see all the chord structures (play them on piano) and imagine how i would like the sound to be like, you know like stretch this note cresendo that note and the phrasing and everything. See this is why my studies are so being neglected. Oh i also think Cantate Domino is a really nice song too. But i can't find any nice versions of it online. Hmm. =(

K bad boy go and study. Sigh. I want more holidays. Only 2 more days left!! ='( -Sniff- Okay. I shall go and bug somebody before attempting to set me brain to think at least as fast as an amoeba. Byee! =D

Today was ultimate waste time day. I don't want to waste any more time talking about how i wasted time.

Anyway, i'm SO proud of myself that i managed to do ionic equilibria tutorial qn 7-10 all by myself and got them all correct!!!!!!! Omgosh! I'm not that air-headed after all. =D Yay -feels vaguely smarter-

Okay but yar today was a waste of time so tomorrow need to attempt to rush. Not like i have a schedule planned or anything, which is bad, coz i should, but i just can't get down to doing one. Bleh. Hope i don't die.

I had a lot of things to blog about, but i can't remember them anymore? So okay i'm just going to end here. Tmr got chem from 9-12. Omgosh. Goodnight people!! xD.

Hm was in toilet washing up and had random revelation!

There are 2 kinds of emotion-less way of thinking

1st way. To be void of emotions, and to be objective. So then you become really diplomatic and always want to make decisions based on the views of others and the majority. But sometimes, this seriously cannot work because to be diplomatic all the time to make every little decision means wasting a lot of time to settle something which is trivial. Inefficiency sets in.

2nd way. To ignore emotions and just do what you like. In this case more of ignoring other people's emotions i guess. To be frank, and to just say what you want. If i don't like you, i tell you i don't like you. Not good either, because then you'll hurt other people or say things which might cause dislike or unpleasantness.

So how? Take 2 extremes and average it lor. Haiz. Application of physics SPA in real life. Joy. Goodnight!

Waternight is a beautiful song. Mmmmm. I tried to study today. But i think i'm failing tremendously. Nevermind i still have half the afternoon to go -.- Yayyyy.....

I am bored and xian. Someone punch me.

Yo people. I am really tired. And i think i'm going to 爆炸 from overeating dinner. Wubber.

I have decided, that tonight shall be the last night i officially slack. Tomorrow morning, i am going to uproot my entire being, and my notes, and stationery NOT my computer to the library, oh yes plus my ipod as well, and start to MUG. Like i said, i'm in a i-feel-stupid phase so okay i need to get smarter right? I mean got problem, solve it!

xD

Hopefully.

I think hybrid cars are really cool.

Okay i think i shall aim to sleep early tonight. So that tomorrow will be longer, and i can be more productive. Yay. Oh super funny. I was wondering why i had like surplus money this week, then just now then remembered that i had to pay money for the ticket to Singer's Vocal emsemble concert. So okay paid my friend, then i was left with like $10. Then i was like 'OH so that's why i'm so rich this week.....' Okay NOBODY comment on that. Anyway. Then went with aunty to buy dinner from newton, then coz like super waste money if we put coupon and buy food da bao then come home right? So i went down to buy. Then buy buy buy order order order then need to pay right. Then i opened my wallet then i was like o.O omgosh i only have $10. Then calculate calculate calculate what's 3+3+3????? Then omogsh $9! Just nice. Okay so pay pay pay then i ended up with $1. So okay it's good. I'm not supposed to go out the entire of next week because i'm supposed to sink into depression and study right? So okay i think i can survive on $1. Let's see if i somehow manage to spend it =)

I realised the chord with a do and a so and the a mi an octave higher is like super nice. If you have the chance, go grab 2 guys to do the low notes then an alto to do the mi. Then listen hard and you'll be able to hear a high do and a high so. Ahhhhhh..... I should go and find out more about how a) our vocal cords REALLY work b) how sound waves interact with each other to form chords and such and overtone. Oh funky. I have a new aim in life =D

I am going to not bore you guys anymore and bum off to find something to do. Sigh house gets emptier and emptier. Brother has moved out. Elder sister is forever out with her boyfriend. Even if she's not, she's holed up in her room. Other sister is coming home real late every night ever since she started school which is such an oxymoron. But nevermind. Ah wellz. Home alone. Oh wait, got my aunty. Hee. Yawnz k can't wait for dadddddyyyy and mummmmyyy to come home. Yayyyy. Bye guys! Happy holidays. (HA FAT HOPE)