I am vaguely annoyed at myself right now because I really don't feel like studying but i should be because of SATs this saturday. Aiya whatever i will chiong double X 2 tomorrow (i said that yesterday too but whatever) because i fell asleep this afternoon haha. I'm totally not used to going to school at all so i had a huge headache this afternoon because i was so tired then before i knew it was like zzzz-ing on my big white fluffy half-quilt bed. I think my bed is the one thing i love the most in my room. Probably with the exception of my computer. Hmm. Oh and my strawberry blanket. Yeah.

I can't wait for A levels to be over! Really, then i will just throw all my notes and everything away! They are just taking up so much space and everything. I think my cupboard also has all my secondary school stuff stored up there. And when i throw everything away, my room will be nice and clean and dust-free for once since i moved here in Primary 2. Wow my house is 20 years old.. We renovated it 10 years ago and my mum is saying that she wants to renovate it again haha. Well whatever, just do it while i'm in army or something.

Hmm. You know, I lubbx my chem teacher. And today she said something that kind of gave me a shock, because well, it didn't occur to me. She said (something to this effect) 'To be frank, most of you will not do chemistry in university. So if you think about it, the A levels will be the last time ever that you take a chem paper. So please please just go the extra mile, put in the extra effort and don't regret after the paper.' And well, yar! It kinda made me realise, with a tinge of sadness, that I may never ever have to use all this information that i've studied for the past 2 years (or if you include secondary school then 6 years) ever again. Well it's just a bit sad la, I mean like we study so hard, never to use it again. But oh well. It's always the process and the shaping our brains and learning itself etc etc that we're supposed to treasure even if we don't use the info itself. Blah blah. But i mean it's just quite sad i suppose. In a way, we're studying for no use? Okay not no use because or A levels brings us to where we want to go. But yeah.

Anyway love her so i'm going to mug and do super well for chem for Dr Wong =)

And actually i realise a levels is really quite scary. I mean compared to PSLE (which is like, for most of us, our previous major exam), A levels is really like 1000X bigger and harder and more demanding and more important! And more uncertain too. Sigh. Oh well okay i suppose it's just time to throw aside everything, like the math HOD said haha and just put everything we've got into the next 4.5 weeks and own A levels. =)))

Oh today was so funny. I was waiting outside Gerald's classroom for his class to like, leave, so i was just looking at block A (coz i was at block B) then i happened to look into A21 and saw Kialiang and before i knew it some guy just launched himself on Kialiang and proceeded to rape him for the entire world to see hahaha. Kialiang are you ok? xD. Hope your, ah, virginity is still intact lol. Anyway that was the funniest thing in my otherwise really boring day, so thanks -winks-

Okay lala love Mariah.

let me wrap my thighs,
all around your waist,
just a little taste....

Oh yes, and i wish i could be like. Really Really Really Rich and Famous then i can just quit school now and not do anything for the rest of my life. Like just go around singing and touring the world. Ahhh money money money...

I was about to say that I'm fat, stupid and ugly, but geet has been nice and convinced me that i'm not. Yay love you geetz. xD.

Anyway. I officially hate maths, econs and GP. And i now love and embrace chem and physics although obviously i love physics more because i still kinda hate chem and i think it's quite a disgusting subject and whoever likes it is strange but nevermind i still love it. =)

You know, I'm wondering why i got such a low mark for my GP essay. My teacher wrote something about contradicting myself....... Hmm..

Well anyway after watching mamma mia i'm totally in love (again) with Abba songs though maybe listening to them jinxed my grades but anyway i really love honey honey hahaha. Ok actually i really like many of their songs they really have a song for any mood lor. Like now when i'm sad i listen to stuff like 'the winner takes it all' and 'One of us'. Omg love them lala.

Ok i'm talking rubbish but i'm just glad I got back all my grades already. Not spectacular at all but nevermind, i studied only 1 week! And if i study for 5 weeks for A levels that means i'll do 5 times as well yay okay go me go Chris you rock you can do this you can go be a nucleophile and own A level's backside. Muaha. 

So you know i really like britney, and her song piece of me. So occasionally i've gone around singing it lala so anyway lol Gerald is hilarious.

On 17th September:

superimpo(SING)       Czhao says:

you wanna piece of me?

embos(SING)    ♫  gerald says:

u are like so annoying stop being a julian and spamming song lyrics

On 20th September:

superimpo(SING)       Czhao says:

you wanna piece of me?

embos(SING)    ♫  gerald says:

no thanks im damn full

On 20th September again:

superimpo(SING)       Czhao says:

you wanna piece of me?

embos(SING)    ♫  gerald says:

eeyer

gross pls

On 21st September:

superimpo(SING)       Czhao says:

you wanna piece of me?

embos(SING)    ♫  gerald says:

...

told you how many times liao

dun wan

On 22nd September:

superimpo(SING)       Czhao says:

you wanna piece of me?

embos(SING)    ♫  gerald says:

-.-

u're really persistent

Post prelims to some extent are quite boring. But not that i mind really haha i can literally roll around and lump around and do nothing and don't feel guilty at all! =) But i'm really becoming a pig la since prelims i've been going out to eat super often everday bleh i'm going to gain back the 3kg i lost during prelims. =( Okay cannot lol or not later become fat like porky pig then omg damn fugly.

Anyway, yay 4 more days left and tomorrow's chorale outing! Thanks julie ann for planning it =) Omg so exciting haha we better sing a million songs and chase the people playing in the 4th court away. (Julie managed to book 3 out of the 4 badminton courts at bishan) Yay then we can take over their court wootz. Lala. Or, we could be so pro that everybody flocks to us and listens. Lala i'm talking rubbish. Ok next.

Hmm lala so fun i haven't played badminton in eons. Haha i used to train in bishan sports hall on saturdays last time in secondary school. Super fun. Hm i wonder where my coach is now.

Anyway i finally started using the lux soap that the girls gave on the trip lol. Because my previous supply of soap finally ran out, and i forgot to buy new one. So i was like oh no omg no more soap then oh yeaaaaa still got lux so i went to use it. It's really strange. Like the pink colour has strange bright spots of red that makes it look like it has really bad acne. But anyway it smells nice haha so yay thanks a million =) 

Erm. Okay i'm really bored. 

Bored bored bored. Rawr maybe i shouldn't have waken up to eat breakfast with my parents. haha then i can sleep more and  not be bored now. Ok whatever omg i'm going to find something to do bye!

I think chem hates me and I hate chem. I shall apologize beforehand to my really wonderful chem teacher Dr Wong who's really an angel and the best chem teacher in the world. Unfortunately i'm going to let her down =( Sorry, chem is just not for me. And i really think people who like chem are freaks. xD But oh well. The world is fair, so nevermind I'll get over this and do better next time. 

Things get better through whatever

If you fall dust if off don't let up

Yay go me.

Ahh but i'm so relieved too that prelims are finally over (heh sorry to various H3 maths people) but sigh it's really one of the most stressful exams ever trying to study 2 years worth of work in 1 week of holidays and then going through 2 weeks of exams and anxiety and nervousness before every paper. Well, we made it =) And we've several weeks to rest before we have to gear up again for the final, real thing which will like, define our destiny or something lol. Still not too sure what i'm going to do in uni or even which uni i'll go that sort of things. Hmm better start thinking about it soon. 

That day after chem and econs papers i came home and just sat down and stoned for about 5 minutes and after stoning, like pure stoning, just sitting here not doing anything or thinking about anything, i actually felt really happy! haha. So i was like thinking maybe army, where it's vaguely more less brainy than school could be not-so-bad after all. Rest the brain for 2 years. Haha who am i kidding xD

Well whatever, just take things as they come. Because things will always come, and they will always go, so we should just treasure the present so that we won't regret the past =D. And strive to make the future better because that's what we're able to control. Yay prelims are paast! xD. 

Okay i had a really wonderful treat from my aunty at Haagan Dazs just now haha love their brownies. Later tonight going to pick parents up from airport. Haha. Miss them lots but the week with exams went by quite quickly la. At least they'll be here next week then they can bring me out lots lots and muahahahahahahaha. xD. Yay love my parents and my aunty to bits xD.

lala i'm ranting. Ok i'm going to er find something to do now. Go me.

Oh anyway. I really like this song called 'vogue' by madonna (it's some old song) so last night i went to search for the video online and omg this is what i found. Watch only if nobody else is in the room pls. 

Ahhh. ONE MORE DAAAAAY! I can't believe i've a 5 hour wait between the chem and physics papers sigh. I think i'm going to come home because i am very unproductive in school and 5 hours is really quite long lol i sure get back ache if i sit on benches xD. Omg i'm such a slut. 

Anyway i really really love Britney and Mariah Carey omg i really really love their songs. But Mariah > Britney lol but omg still love them both. I remember in primary school i kept singing oops i did it again lol then i could like dance the mtv dance in her red hot suit. lala i realised that's quite a bad mental image. 

LOL.

'I'm Mr lifestyle of the rich and famous' 

OMG i feel really irritating and bitchy now everybody should just not read this post and go away. Love ya all bye!

=))) I'm really really really glad that God gave me the voice i have. I suddenly just had this whole wave of i-really-really-love-singing-and-am-so-glad-to-have-such-a-nice-voice feeling. And i really really miss singing, especially in my real voice and just belting out hight notes haha and just singing for the love of it. 

Maybe because prelims are ending but i'm feeling quite happy now haha or maybe because i just screamed high notes and feel really good. Yay thank you for the music, the song i'm singing!! xD

I am really really damn sick and sian of studying physics.

So anyway while i was bored and deciding what to do i decided to take a photo of like my study area. I study in like my house's library usually at the table but like when i'm feeling lazy or tired or like i'm reading notes i'll borrow my sister's beanbag and lie on it and study on the floor hahahah. I love it omg it's super comfortable and it conforms to like my body. Hm. Okay. Protein. 

Lala here's a picture lol.

Lala my messy physics notes. Sigh. Okay dinner time soon then i will carry on studying i think i'm going to sleep early and wake up early to cram stuff into my brain. I realise last minute mugging like helps quite a bit haha like how i studied nitro 2 at 6.30am while eating breakfast and S4A this morning memorizing the spastic table on the different types of sampling methods. Tomorrow i shall memorize all the definitions and flip through Paper 3s and lala hopefully see questions that come out during exam then can do =) Yay great plan.

Okay bye bye yay the end is near. 

Lala i'm going to get Zero for question 2 of both math papers. Omg.

And i realised that i screwed up price discrimination question yesterday.

I know this is really bimbz and like. Stuff. But you know why? Lol. Because i didn't know what a bus pass was/is >.<

My. Hand. Is. Dead. How. To. Practise. Maths. Like. That. Dies. Tired. Omg. Econs. Sucks. 

Wikipedia: A sneer is a fresh pound beer and scornful facial expression characterised by a slight raising of one corner of the upper lip. It is used to express contempt and a sneer can be a facial expression, sound, or statement.

It has no relationship whatsoever to a country's inflation rate.

BLEH i'm currently incapable of turning my head to the left because evidently i had a terrible sleep last night which resulted in a very very bad neck ache on the left side of my neck =(( I dreamt of chemistry throughout the whole night like i remember kept imagining elucidation questions and letters of the compounds i had to find. Then like reagents conditions and everything. I remember i just kept dreaming of them but like the reagents/conditions itself didn't actually appear in the my dream, so it's not like i was revising in my sleep. Hahaha. Wasted. Or not today don't need to mug them already. Ahhh my neck really hurts and tomorrow when i turn to look at the clock must like turn my whole body hahaha. Omg spastic. 

Ok i realised that i'm really quite sian of studying things that i've studied before and things that have been tested. And it's even worse when i encounter things that came out and i didn't know like groups VII equations then i'm like freak it's right here and i couldn't remember/do it in the exam =(( Sigh. 

Don't give up.. Through it all just stand up!

I am so freaking bored of stats i could eat a cow. 

So.

Bored.

Oh my God. 

Stats is killing me.

-dies-

My 500th post!

Anyway i just realised that it's quite a strange an unusual feeling to try to study something that has been tested before so recently. Like today's chem is over, and the next paper is chem, so technically i should be studying chem but omg it's just so strange to try to pick chem up and mug. First time we've to do this i suppose. Anyway not like i was crazy enough to try doing chem today haha actually i wanted to do math but i've been having forced mugging for the last 2 days that my brain's ip>ksp and it refuses to accept anymore information. =( Oh well gotta chiong for the next 2 days.

Ahh i'm scared. Hope maths doesn't die coz i never do S1,3,4,5,6 tutorials and paper 1 wasn't like the best thing on earth (in fact i think it was the worst paper so far). Neither was my physics paper so got to do better for paper 3 and 1. Ahhh and econs was fugufishhead worthy. Okay maybe econs was worse than maths...... Comparable. Sian.

Ahhh stress. Haha according to my mum, she asked my brother about A levels and he said 'oh actually it was a really fun time!' Then we came to the conclusion that that was because he went to study with friends everyday in school/McDonalds near RJ's old campus and he was having lots of fun since he had a girlfriend in JC too then well ended up in him having 3As. Haha he burst bio. 

Then it came to my elder sister who was so stressed that she had white hair all over. I remember 6 years ago when i was.. er. How old ah. Primary 6 then while studying for PSLE and i was bored i would just go up behind her and help her to pluck off all the white hair and i would find like 20 strands and just put them on a piece of paper and like present it to her as a gift HAHA. Ooo now i remember. We both studied in our library and i would sing and annoy her quite a lot haha.

2 years ago my other sister lost hair while studying for A levels hmm. And for me? Luckily i never have white hair or lose hair but rawr i'm loosing sleep which is so super annoying but hm honestly i'd rather lose sleep than the other 2 haha coz can take sleeping pills xD. My sister is still on hair supplement pills now =( 

Well they both got 5As in the end. 

I think being the youngest child in the family has its pro and cons definintely. i really do have to in a subconscious way live up to everybody's expectations to either meet or surpass what my siblings have done. Well i have already haha my sister didn't get a single A in JC and got all 5 in A levels. (She tends to do that. She got exactly 6 points for O levels to get into RJ lol). Then in PSLE it was the pressure to do well and get into RI. Thank goodness there was no O levels. Omg. Ahhh but what's scary is that they all got A for GP and my GP sucks like crazy -.- Oh no. 

Well of course the good thing is that the youngest is always more pampered =P And i get to be taken care of by my older siblings! Although well i don't think it always happens in most families la. There are so many where the youngest gets bullied a lot or the siblings don't get along well at all or they just exist as siblings merely because. Because. No reason. Because they were born to the same parents? In that sense i know i'm very blessed to have siblings who really care and love me a lot. =) While they may not be the most willing at times, they will always be there no matter what and it's really to them that i tell my most worrying problems to haha. We have a lot of secrets from my parents xD. 

Erm ok why am i talking about this? 

Okay i think maybe i'm just trying to tell myself that if my siblings can do it so can i =) My dad always said that while we're different people, we come from the same parents. Same dad, same mum. So we're not that different after all, and it's all in the brain and mindset. Well, i think bio people will object to various things such as gene mutation and like whatever cross cross thing that gives you variations that's why not all kids look the same etc. Ok whatever. But yes okay i shall inspire myself and carry on studying tomorrow. 

-10 mins later-

LOL my sister burst out laughing when she heard the stupid mistakes i made in chem paper. Ok i tell you ultimate stupid mistake.

Question 1 the last part they ask you to draw the pH graph when oxides of Na to S are added separately to water. So for some reason, i read it as oxides of Na and S are added to water. (like bimbo eyesight or something). So i was like huh. 

NaO + H2O-----> 2Na+ and 2OH-

SO2 + H2O-----> (SO3)2- and 2H+

So i wrote those equations and wrote 'they neutralise each other'. and drew a pH graph like that:

Lalala what a beautiful pH graph. Ok ya so that was my stupid bimbo mistake. LOL.

Bleh ok it's 11.40pm and i think it's sufficiently late enough for me to fall asleep i hope. =( Okay i will try anyway. Goodnight!!

Yay half the papers down and we managed to survive 1 week omg go us.

Tired and sleepy omg so unproductive, and it causes me to make stupid mistakes. ZzzZZ. Thank goodness mummy's sleeping pill worked last night and i zzzzz until the morning and drank essense of chicken and stayed awake long enough for chem paper. Lala my eyes are starting to blur up now -.- and i'm getting a sore throat from the essense of chicken. Hungry.

Finally 1st week of exams are over phew but next week is like just as crazy la omg chem and econs in the same day then maths on tues and physics on wed. But poor bio kids more poor thing got double papers on mon/tues. 

Ok well anyway can rest over the weekend (sort of). 

Add oil everyone! =)

Dying.

Omg.

I hate chem omg i hate chem it sucks X10^99999999999. OMG cannot stand it SUCCCCKS.

I am sooo tired now because i couldn't sleep until 1+ last night. Sigh hate my brain. Everytime exams i either dream a lot or can't sleep =(( Omg but must mug or not chem will die tomorrow.

Sigh go me. Argh sleepy.

Lol last night i had a really strange dream. Part of it involved Mrs Toh being pregnant LOL

Hmm ok i can't remember most if it but I know it was mostly filled with Mr Toh o.O Just like having conversations most of the time then like the scene changed and like i was in nanyang primary old block.. Then like i think Geet and Minsi were like in the classroom then there was just 3 of us haha then Mrs Toh walked in then she was pregnant. Then Geet and I went :O -whisper whisper- then end of story lol. 

Omg ok i very scared for physics >.<

Nehnehpok la.

Sian.

Mug. Again.

Yayy thanks Julian for sending me this video ahh i really really love the song and the lyrics are really inspiring and have helped me to continue studying =)

The video itself is quite funny because it flashes the faces of the people singing and the Mariah Carey part is really quite funny haha when she whistles and the picture keeps flashing and flashing. Okay must watch and inspire yourself!

Don't you know you can go be your own miracle?

Wah sian study also no use might as well don't study. 

I don't feel like studying.

OMG STRESS. STRESS. STRESS. OMG.

The first few lines of this post will be dedicated to Bennett Tan You En.

Bennett, I would like to thank you for... hmm.....

-10 mins later-

...... your lovely fat presence and snide remarks and occasional grunts of encouragement which were very useful in helping me to push on when i felt down. =D

Last night i dreamt that i was a terrorist. I sneaked into a building, planted a bomb, ran away and bombed the place up. I've had this dream before. Except that the 1st time, i placed the bomb, ran away, and couldn't bring myself to blow the place up. Last night, i blew it up. Does anyone think there's something psychologically wrong with me???

Today was  a disgusting day for most part of it. I think i'm going to do badly for prelims. Sigh =( -feels dumb- Okay my eyes are blurry i go sleep and hope i don't dream of strange things. Goodnight!

OH MY SLUT HOW COULD I FORGET!!!

THANK YOU JULIAN (MY FAVOURITE FREAK FRIEND) FOR WRITING THE WONDERFUL TRANSLATION FOR MY CHINESE TRADITIONAL SONG THAT GOT ME SUPER HIGH MARKS =))))) Okay for your sake and for forgetting you i shall post your wonderful poetry skills on my blog. =)) Lubbxx yoo give u beeeg huuug -HUUUUG- i'm still your best friend ok =D Yayy.

Beautiful Lady

Of all the ladies I've met, none are prettier than thou.
You are fresh like the morning sun breaking through the clouds
Free as the fishes swimming in their underwater palaces
Lovely as the nightingales singing in the jade-green garden.
Your face is more beautiful than any flower
You are my heart’s instrument
Everyday you listen to the words from my heart
Your voice dispels all worries and despair
Your love fills me with wisdom and strength

Julian Lim

=)) Anyway today they sent me my report for my voice exam and i almost burst out laughing because the song which i got highest mark for was the traditional folk song which well, i practised the least for. And my supposedly most stable song got the lowest mark =( Ok breakdown for whoever's bored and interested lol:

Sebben Crudele: 19/24
Clair De Lune: 21/24
Silent Noon: 18/21
Younger Than Springtime: 19/21
Traditional Song: 20/21
Sight Singing: 19/21
Aural (thanks geoff =P) 17/18

Haha yay my porno song got like quite high marks haha the comments were 'you made the change of style effectively with warm smile and discreet gestures.' Heh. I suppose showmanship really does help after all.

Rawr anyway i'm really tired from studying today and my right hand hurts from writing bleh. OH YA. Shoutout:

VAAAALERIEEE! I LURRRVE UR LAVENDER BLACK PEN THANK YOU FOR LEAVING IT ON THE TABLE AND LETTING ME RANDOMLY USE IT AND CAUSE ME TO FALL IN LOVE WITH IT AND MADE ME BUY IT AND NOW I KEEP WANTING TO USE IT BECAUSE IT'S REALLY REALLY PREEEEETTY!!! And in order to use it i've to like study or write stuff so that helps in my mugging and is a big source of motivation. Thanks for introducting the wonderful purple (or lavender black whatever..) pen to me. =)) Now all my work is in purple haha really gay and happy-looking. xD

Okay i go sleep now before my brain goes from being fried to deep fried. Nights!

Hmm had a bad dream last night again.

I dreamt that i was taking h3 physics paper again >.< Then it was essentially like the real thing where i didn't know how to do a lot of the paper and i just sat there stoning and trying to figure out how to do the questions while everyone around me was furiously writing away. =(( Then after that i dreamt that it was post prelims and my physics teacher gave me back the h3 paper and i failed. =( then i was very sad. So i woke up feeling quite sad. Sigh.

I really don't like the nights leading up to exams. Or the nights of exams itself because i always have bad dreams or bad quality sleep then it's so oxymoronic because i become even more tired in the day, can't focus, then study less, then worry more, then can't sleep even more. My brain should be classified as 'spastic' seriously.

Hmm okay i'm hungry where's daddy. He's supposed to bring me out for nice yummy lunch =D

Hahaha after blogging this post, kialiang's hot and sexy legs will no longer be on my blog.

Anyway today was/is ultimate sian day. Last night i got super stressed and worried because i realise i really have no time to study finish because of like.. stupid h3 and stuff then today woke up really sianx and like study really slowly today haha. I bet you i'll panic again tonight then burst -.- Anyway thanks julian for giving me really useful tips many of which involved the phrase 'don't study' for example 'don't study organic chem' and 'don't study maths until next tuesday'. =) But it's true i'm not going to study maths until like.. next week just before the paper i think because i really have no time for it =(

I've been having strange dreams recently. Last night's one was REAL weird it involved peeing in urinals and having to set fire to my pee so that they'll combust and disappear because the flush wasn't working. o.O I think too much organic chem already. And i probably had a full bladder.

Okay superposition is killing me i don't think it's very hard, it's just very boring. Okaaay i go carry on mugging or not i'll end up not studying everything and fail. Julian i'll blame you ok. =)

Haha kidding kidding i'm still your best friend k.