Hm. Did i really disappear from reality that much? Don't think so. Feeling rather disoriented and disjointed and out of loop with things now for some reason. Hm. How?

I miss singing. There's usually chorale today, being wednesday!! Well anyway, hope everyone who had OP did well =) Mine's on friday bleh and i haven't even done my I&R haha. I shall uh attempt to do it tonight or something. Gotta dig up all the rubrics whatever which i probably lost like eons ago -.-

I am completely in love with my sister's car.

I think i ate less than 10 jelly beans today. Think. I still have 3 hours to go =(

I just ate a jelly bean (Granny smith apple) Yummy.

Overtone causes fuzzy sound in my speakers. Especially when sops are blasting uh, high high G. Eh, but they sound of OOT (out of tune) Maybe not then.

I am going to eat another jelly bean. (ok resist)

Drank water instead.

I am wasting your time.

Shan't waste it anymore. =)

Goodnight!!

Crap i've taken a very unhealthy liking to jelly beans. Went to vivocity with parents for lunch on friday, then went to candy empire and bought this beeeeg jar of jelly beans made by the jelly bean factory! And it's super nice. =) I especially like the strawberry cheesecake flavour and popcorn!! Hahahahaha.

Anyway, my sister just got her new Mini Cooper S yesterday! It's really pretty. It's 'astro black' in colour but essentially it's just this really really dark blue that's almost black, white stripes down the middle of the bonnet and the back. With RED colour seats! Haiya but it's so typical of my sister haha but it's really cute =)

(Someone please find a way to stop me from eating my jelly beans NOW)

It's my other sister's birthday this wed, so we're going out for lunch after this. Afternoon going Yong Jin's house. (OH South Seas kiwi flavour is really nice too!) Whee k tomorrow friends coming to my house to rehearse blah blah. K i'm feeling much happier today because last night managed to catch up a lot on my sleep debt. Slept uh, 8.5 hours =) K tonight imma sleep early and catch all my sleep back muahahaa.

Okay i go find something productive to do now. =)

I am feeling damn pissed.

Mr Toh: So chris, how did you do for promos?

Me: Uh.. AACC.....

Mr Toh: WOW! You can get A???

Me: (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) YESSS! I can get As okay!!

Mr Toh: Wah you so smart ah, don't need to study also can get A

Me: I got study okay!!

Mr Toh: Then...?

Me: Oh, B for GP

Mr Toh: WOW! You can write????

Me: (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) YESSS! I can write okay!!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Okay no comments xD. Anyway, was also just smsing Mr Toh and he said, in 2 different smses: (decipher the short-forms yourself)

"Chorale is gelg well. Hope e singers wl b gd ambassadors 2 potential members."

"Really encouragg 2 c chorale improvg n enjoyg."

Well obviously this is good =) Everyone say yay! YAY! Yeah but it's true we've got to really keep this up and going in preparation to receive next year's batch. It's going to be quite insane once they come in, all the rush for concert, and trip. There's really not a lot of time to bring everyone up to standard, especially if they're not used to Mr Toh's style or perhaps if they don't have choral background? So yes we must be good seniors and help everyone! =)

I'm quite tired, though i really enjoyed today's practice hahaha. Guess it's just a back-log of lack of sleep. I shall sleep soon la, and anyway tmr i end early!! So can come home and sleep (hopefully). K goodnight world. Rest your voices and sleep early!

I.HATE.SISTIC.WEBSITE.IT.SUCKS.LIKE.SOME.STRAW.SO.SOMEONE.HELP.ME.BEFORE.I.GO.INSANE.

I am going to die of diabetes if i continue the way i do. I drank a nice bubble milk tea during lunch break, bought a slurpee during alumni prac, and drank a mega cup of coffee at coffee bean before going home. Zomg.

As you can tell, i am very deprived of sleep and hence in need of the regular sugar rush and caffeine dose. And i am extremely upset that the super bimbo chic lit book i was reading has finished. No more happy things to look forward to! And seriously, these books are the BEST man because you know they're going to always end happy! AND they're so brainless i literally just waste my life away while reading them. Of course, they help me to destress a lot which is why i had read one on Sunday night before promo results. Hahahaha. Okay i need to find a new one now. NOW. SISTIC IS CAUSING ME TO LOSE LIKE 10 YEARS OF MY LIFE.

OMG. I can't freaking buy the tickets to this friday's concert because the page keeps failing to load after i managed to grab hold of the tickets but unable to make the transaction. I'm afraid that if i do, it hangs, then refresh then it double transact. -.- Zomg. I think it's best to go down and actually buy from the sistic counter. Bleh.

OMG i was blogging and i realised i was creating a post in the chorale blog!!!!! Lucky i saw then i just copied and pasted everything up there to my own blog here. -phew- Or not so embarassing i'm sure got one post ranting away about brainless things.

OMG my hotmail isn't loading either what's wrong with my internet? Rawr.

I am feeling quite hot. And i am not going to blog anymore. =( Goodnight! Rest your voices for tomorrow my dears.

I am so tired that my eyes are tearing, and they hurt a hell lot. My brain is really painful, and i've a mega headache.

But yet i don't feel like sleeping. Must be the ave maria i'm listening to -.-

I'm obviously being emo now. It always happens i guess. Certain things happen, or certain things don't happen, i notice them, and then oops i just start thinking about certain other things. Implications, meanings, reasons.

Totally need a slurpee tomorrow man or not i won't survive.

Hope everything goes well. Goodnight =)

Hm i was just looking through all my old photos because i was really bored. Well not old, but since about 2005 when we got our first digital camera. Oh, it was quite funny coz my dad didn't really trust digital cameras then, so the first few times we went on holiday we'd always bring both the digital and film camera. But oh well, actually it was a good thing la coz i remember that digi cam kept running out of battery really quickly and its memory space was quite small like 64mb only or something.

Anyhow. If you're my friend on facebook then you'll see several new photos!! =) Hmm was looking at some of my sec 2 photos from last time, and i realised i was much tanner last time. Well, i mean quite duh la i was a hockey player. Haha! Actually it was quite a nice colour because i'm naturally fair, so after all that sun i didn't really turn brown or black like how my brother and one of my sister does, i just uh turn... uh, darker? Like a nice shade of gold/bronze whatever. Okay hahaha. Those were the days =( And i had nice skin too!! Now i'm getting all fat and white LOL.

Oh and i'm super upset because i can't find a photo of my family where everyone looks super good. It's the photo i have in my wallet, but somehow i can't find it on my computer. =(((( I really hope i didn't forget to transfer it from my laptop to my computer before my laptop got reformatted. =(( Maybe. It's quite an old photo, from 2005.

Anyhows, today's been a rather boring day so far. I shall uh maybe go and take a short nap now. Yawnz. =))

Wahahaha. Mr Toh has requested for the SYF comments so that he can go through it next week with us. Not sure if i'm allowed to blog about it, but anyway i'll just post what 1 of the judges said. They've got a sense of humour!

1) stands for set piece, 2) for Shchedrivka 3) for pamugun.

1)why you sang semi-tine lower from the beginning?
your onomatopoeias are so effective, and i feel wide space from your performance
Wow, the last of this piece will be correct pitch!
2) Boy's voices are excellent. Your harmony is so symphonic. Like adult choir
3) Little bit so fast, i think. therefore each words are not clear. Anyway you can make nice drama successfully

Wahahaha! I couldn't read the chinese one (duh) so i skipped it but there was another judge that went '...... BUT! SEMITONE LOWER!' (really in caps). Hahaha! Okay everyone will get to see it on wednesday =)

Anyway, many of you may know, or not know, i don't know, that earlier in the first half of the year i was asked to sing with RCS, the unofficial alumni of RJ chorale (and the group we're going to carol under). We're going on an end of year trip back to Prague, where RV had our competition. It's the same competition, but different venue and whatever. So practices have been every saturday afternoon at one of the member's house. It's been really fun la, very different to get to sing in a small group, with only 12 of us, and me having to sing bass (yes out of the 3 tenors i'm the lowest) because all 3 tenors are so loud and we've lack of basses. It's definitely a very different experience between having Mr Toh conduct in front of the choir and having him sit right next to you where he can poke your face when your tone is wrong LOL or stare at you when you go out of tune.

Well anyhow, that also explains why i've been uh banned (haha) from going to Sentosa by Mr Toh tomorrow =( Ah well, really hope that everyone else is able to make it and all of you promise me you'll have fun okay? =) I think in our short JC life, it really is difficult to get a big group of people who all have different timetables and commitments to come together on one day to go on an outing. It's different from a class, where it's easy to just go out after lessons, even so, it's usually just for a short lunch before everyone breaks off to go do their own things. With so many exams and events popping up here and there, it's difficult to find the appropriate time to even hold such an outing in the first place. So, yes, we should all always treasure such things when they come by. Unfortunately i don't think i've been able to make it to like a single one? Wasn't at chalet because i was overseas, now tomorrow i can't go. Aiya but oh well, terrible timing? Perhaps hahaha but well maybe we'll have a chalet at the end of year? ANYONE WANTS TO PLAN ONE??? =)))))) You are most welcome to xD. How about a christmas chalet? That will be nice. We can have Gerald blast his solo for round the glory manger HAHAHA.

Anyway i'm really tired now. This week has been half terrible, half fulfilling. Hopefully my mind can clear soon, by tomorrow, and then i can start thinking normally again, and not have information overload. Haha! =) Goodnight world and have lots of fun tomorrow!

Wow. I've never felt that i've ever had an information overload until today came along. Okay. I'm having a headache now. But well, i do feel better after all the meetings because it cleared a lot of things up, and now we also kind of have a clearer picture of what to do next. So yes, happy things. But my head hurts and i think i need to sleep. -.-

Chorale today was fun. Yay Mr Toh didn't scold me, except for uh being loud -.- Nevermind i think i can solve THAT problem quite easily haha! And i realise i really REALLY like renaissance pieces they seem to appeal most to me =) Basically stuff which overlap nicely and yet still blend and have chords at such unexpected moments just never fail to make me go "oooo" when i sing. Wahaha.

Okay i'm really tired and i should go and sleep. My voice feels quite tired i must have uh abused it or something hmm. Okay everyone go sleep and rest your voices =)

suet says:
actually bennett is not really fat what

suet says:
why does he keep wanting to lose weight

suet says:
its quite scary

suet says:
okay okay come i summon my enthusiasm so you can quote me

suet says:
BENNETT TAN YOU EN YOU ARE NOT FAT!!!!

suet says:
STOP LOSING WEIGHT ITS SUPER UNHEALTHY

suet says:
yay okay moving on

Hello everyone! Today's been some mega-slack day. Oh wait, no i went to church ^.^ I almost died trying to get out of bed after a mere 6.5 hours of sleep. BUT i didn't fall asleep in church =) BUT i came back and immediately zzzz-ed on my bed for 1 hour plus before dad came and woke me up for lunch. Went to adam road hawker centre and got conned. Coz at first drove past then it seemed like the entire row of stalls were closed! Then decided to get off to check properly then realised it's coz that entire row we were looking at was like Malay food so since it's Hari Raya yesterday so they're all probably taking a break today =) Yep, so the other side of the hawker centre was still bustling with activity. Heehee. Ate duck rice. Came home, and have been slacking till now yay. Oh, discussed with Suet about exchange!

Okay have decided to be hardworking and am going to attempt to exercise. Someone punch me.

Hmm.. I was just thinking. Choral singing requires a lot of patience. Don't you think? Most of the time, we don't really sing many many fast songs. And so the patience comes when we have to stretch the notes, to pay attention to every detail. And of course, the patience encompasses the hours of practice just to perfect one song. Only to perhaps perform it once? And then what? If someone is always very eager to get along, then won't he/she start rushing when they sing? The song goes out of rhythm. When they rush through practices, how can the song turn out to be good?

I'm not sure if it only applies to choirs, (i didn't bother thinking whether it applied to other stuff), but as long as it applies to us, it's important to know about it.

And i think a large number of people are really just very concerned about singing their own part. But that's just it isn't it, we're not solo singers. We're a choir. I must admit it's really not easy to be able to juggle singing your own part and at the same time listening to other parts. But well, it really really depends you know? Depends on how you view it. I realise that recently, for example wednesday when we were thrown the new christus scores and just sight singing, a lot of times i was just fitting my notes into the chords of the choir. Of course tuning and stuff is still important, but sometimes it's also easier to fit your note into the chord. If everyone is able to hear chords, then we wouldn't go out of tune. But then, relying on chords alone cannot also because if the choir is out of tune, then you'll just lose your note. It's not easy, but it's important to really hear chords in a choir because without chords, then where's the harmony and blend? Unless of course it's clash chords then don't listen because then you'll get influenced to sing other people's notes then you'll lose your correct note haha!

It's also very important to look up and down the score to see who you're supposed to have harmony with, and sometimes whether you and another section are supposed to sing the same note. Because that's like obviously the best time to see if the 2 sections are in tune right? If they clash then obviously burst. Haha! Hmm. Maybe it's a good idea to just play notes and let people try to fit notes in to make up the chord. Hmmm.

Okay going back to patience. Oh i also realise that often in singing many people tend to slack at last moments? Not just realise la, Mr Toh has been telling us very often. But many times, we don't realise it's happening. But it really does affect the whole sound. It's in a way a reflection of how people want to rush on to the next note without even completing the note they're singing. Maybe it's not patience, but just that people don't know that they're neglecting the last part of the note. So. Something to take note of =)

Anyway super happy suddenly today was able to identify the difference between my speaking-singing voice and my tony-singing voice ^.^ Okay shall have no more christopher sound! Heeheehee. I realised that all along i though the ringing-in-the-front-of-my-face sound was the correct sound, and that the big blob of sound at the back of the head meant that the sound was stuck in the head (dark sound). But then i had a revelation and realised that it has to have BOTH the big blob of sound to create the nice big tone and the ringing feeling to create the uh, ringing sound. Cannot just have 1. Big blob alone ---> Dark sound. Ringing sound alone---> annoying nasal christopher-sound. So must combine then it'll sound better =) Yay. Revelation of the century!!

Bleh okay it's almost 1am and i've gotta wake up early to go church tmr. Yes, i've started going back to church after like many many years (really). Bye everyone! Goodnight and rest your voices, or if you're using them, make sure it's only for experimental purposes to make them better! Haha joking xD. Okay no seriously.

Hello! Wah today was sooo dreadful. At least school was. I was supremely tired because of the endless late nights ever since Sunday night. And well, i think it's having an effect on me. My eyes and uh like the eyebrows there were quite painful and i just zzzzz throughout econs lecture. LT5 tables are super not conducive for sleeping btw they just slide around wherever i lean my elbows. Ah well, anti-sleeping measures. But i guess if you're that tired, it doesn't matter. So before maths i CMI went to buy a slurpee because the sheer amount of sugar content is enough to wake me up no matter what. And well, it kind of worked. Stayed awake enough to kind of understand. Oh but the lecturer was really funny anyway she kept randomly shouting instead of using the mic and say random lame but (to me) rather funny jokes. I think my brain was so dead that any attempt at a joke would have appeared funny. Anyway. Chem was next and i stayed awake coz i was just like half talking to Jin Kai half listening and copying. Bleh. Hope my organic chem next year doesn't GGXX.

Oh i realised why it was so terrible also! My class doesn't have a single double lecture. So we stay in the LTs for a max of 1 period before moving to classrooms or break or something. Ya, so the fact that we have 1.5 hours lecture instead of 1 hour, AND 3 lectures together is enough to make me go dizzy. So when school finished at 12 i buay tahan rushed off with sister and aunty to J8 to eat... Ding Tai Feng!! =D Super nice and we also ate like uh yami yogurt after that so okay i was going to pop. Came home and zzzzzzzzz until 3+ then went to cut my hair (finally). I was supposed to cut it 1 week before promos so you can tell how overdue it is. I think i've said this a million times. Anyway. So it's nice and short and my sister went 'SO CUTE!' when she saw it -.- Wubber. Then 爆炸 i became a pig and went to island creamery and ate more ice cream. Wahaha. Ok like whatever.

I miss my parents!

Oh yar! Congratulations to the music comm! Everyone in chorale, let's make chorale a super pro place okay?? OKAYY?? And of course mould each other into good singers who gel together and enjoy the whole thing through our music and friendship. Looking ahead - to prepare for the new J1 intake next year and be ready to accept them and quickly teach them such that we can be ready for whatever endeavors we're going to undertake next year. Yes? =)


And of course, we are SO going to make things better. <3

WoW. Today's choir was very enjoyable. Hm i really like renaissance pieces i realise. Ever since O magnum, i think i've really come to appreciate this style a lot more, with all the different arches. It's really beautiful when each section has their own melody and arches and climaxes and all those. It may appear like the choir is falling apart, with each section going off to sing their own melody, but well in actual fact it's not. Because the notes always form chords and they always end up in unison at the end of the entire phrase. So it's like diversity yet everyone is together. Ah so sweet. But hm if you guys don't really like the christus song (i only don't like it because i get a shock everytime mr toh says it-.- ) then i guess we could suggest another one or try other songs. Opinions people??? =D.

Anyway my voice is back to normal =) No more no voice from saturday haha. But then hmm i think maybe uh now it's like rehealing or something because it feels very mucousy in my throat bleh. Oh well, must be sing too much in falsetto. If i'm not wrong when we sing in our falsetto, we're actually using some mucous membrane part of our vocal cords, compared to using the entire set of muscles for full voice. So maybe that's why if you have more mucous you can sing higher? WAHAHA i don't know.

I ended real early today, like 10.15. Hm then worked on moving the stuff from our old (now it's called old) store room to Raffles Room 8 because they want to convert that room to photocopying room. Whee. Thanks so much for everyone's help. =) Who ah? Ivan, Isaac, Kialiang, Bennett, Suet, Gen, Cat, Joseph, and the random dude from RP. We did it in 2 hours!! Anyway then ate lunch with bennett, quan, isaac, geet. Went with quan and geet to the MEP room and listened to them sing their duet for elijah rock. My ears almost burst wahahaha. Then yeps went for chorale which was fun. =) Keep kena from Mr Toh haha but okay nevermind my fault i THINK i was being lazy so never use techniques fully so caused sound to be a bit off. Anyhow. Yawnz. xD

Oh it's so funny. While having lunch, quan and geet started singing their prague songs, and they sang a version of ave maria, and the song is so beautiful! I have it in one of my chanticleer albums, though they did a TTBB version while RGS obviously did a SSAA version. But they're the same la just different octaves. But i was like zomg then now i'm listening to it non stop haha. It's really really very beautiful. Gentle and smooth (quotes ivan). It's quite long though, 7 minutes plus. Ahhh. I think i'm just going to ooze in beautiful choral music tonight. -chris is in bliss-

Oh crap. Throat hurts after eating ice cream -.- Silly me. K let me gulp down 10thousand gallons of water. Hmm today is a funky long day. Econs, maths and chem lecture. End at 12.05. I'm finally going to cut my hair =) Couldn't find any time to do it ever since 1 week before promos. So yeah that's how long it's overdue haha i think like i saved cutting my hair once already wahaha. Anyway it really is warmer when i've long hair. But then again, i feel less cold in aircon room. Oh wellz. Pros and cons.

Okay really tired now. I shall stop here and go find something constructive to do =) Goodnight world! And rest your voices =D

I shouldn't be awake at this hour. I should be sleeping. I have to go school by 830am tomorrow morning. I know i will just die if i don't sleep now and have to wake up barely 6 hours later. But i still don't feel like sleeping.

It's interesting how sometimes you know you have a bad habit, or like there's something bad about you, but yet it doesn't hit you hard until someone actually tells you you're like that. Hm like let's say I'm fat, but then the reality of it doesn't hit me until someone actually says in my face 'you are FAT okay.' Yar okay you get what i mean. It's a very interesting sensation and it causes you to uh go into deep thinking and hm maybe that's why i don't feel like sleeping. It's not a bad thing, sometimes it's good for people to tell you your bad points. You know how they always say that your true friends always point out your mistakes because they want you to improve? I guess i'm also glad that i have friends who're like that. =) So uh, in a way, thank God for them.

I had a really fun day today with my 2 sisters and dad. Went to fish farms in the afternoon after a yummy lunch haha. It's amazing to see all the different kinds of fish, like all the breeds. And of course, the huge giant arowanas on display. The most expensive was this big red one which cost $6888. I think no fun leh, the fun is in rearing the fish until it grows big right? Yeah so hopefully my dad's will grow big then from $48 become worth $10000 or something. Heehee.

Hm it's amazing also how much drama can unfold in one day. Miscommunication really results in a lot happening and as history has like shown, it can really result in serious consequences. Oh, made me think of Othello haha. Where the woman totally died coz the husband thought she cheated and then he killed himself after realizing she was faithful. GGXX. -.- Yeah oh well, everyone learns at the end of the day hopefully.

Sigh phew okay. I think i'm finally feeling more relieved now. Hm okay it's 1.30am and i gotta wake up at 7am. So that means? 5 and a half hours of sleep. HHYY. Okay hopefully i don't uh faint tomorrow. Haha Suet can totally save me =).

K my brain has ceased to think. I shall stop here and uh try to sleep now. Goodnight world. Sweet dreams =)

Hello! I totally lost my voice and couldn't sing at all today. Okay but nevermind hahaha i hope it'll heal and come back soon. xD.

Anyway, congrats to us for open house!! I think all of us really put in a lot of effort in both our singing and in stuff like the board. Yayy i'm really proud of everyone because 1. our board was totally damn hot okay 2. our singing was totally damn pwnz okay. We've definitely grown in our singing and gel together as a choir better. =) Yay ok nice bright future for us wahahaha. Also can see that we're more confident in our performing uhh abilities? And more daring and fun-loving too. =) That's good that's good. Must grow as performers too!

Oh burst. Okay i gotta go for dinner. Anyway i've had a long day and i'm seriously tired from lack of sleep from last night LOL. Heehee. See ya all and a big thanks to everyone! =)

Hmm i don't really want to face 'reality' so i'm doing lame things like cutting my nails, playing random music, going to say hi to my sister, blogging etc. Xianz.

Choir prac today was not bad. Considering we haven't sung for 5 weeks =D. Mr Toh kept saying we were good hm but i guess from our point of uh, hearing it's sometimes difficult to hear the overall sound so can't really tell. But i think i can describe our sound as tight. Hee. Means we blend la. =)

Think i'm gonna sleep early. Though i was a pig and woke up quite late still quite tired after choir. Hmm. Tomorrow gotta go school at 8am so oops gotta wake up at 7 haha. Okehs so i should sleep by 11 which is 1 hour's time. Okay i go try to do something constructive like write my PW script. (HAHA). Goodnight! Sing well tomorrow =)

I'm in this really floaty mood now. Must be coz i just watched cinderella story. I happily decided to let my bimbotic side shine through for 2 hours and watch that spastic show haha. It's one of the better fairytale/chick flick movies. Hmm well i'm not the only one gerald told me he watched 'just my luck' =P Heehee.

Anyways. Choir tomorrow, or later today. Whichever. It's been a long time, 5 weeks since our last practice. I sincerely hope everyone is able to remember everything that we've learnt in term 3. But shouldn't be too bad la, considering um, every section (except mine) had sectionals. Oh dear. Okay we're having ours before practice. Poor bennett had like half the teeth in his mouth extracted yesterday and he could hardly open his mouth let alone sing. So that's like 1/3 section gone. So yar tomorrow before practice then. I can't be there for a large part of the prac, gotta go and do a dry run of the dry run. Heehee no choice.

Sigh okay sucks to miss choir. Like after so long don't have then gotta miss it =( Hm i love il divo's I believe in you with Celine Dion. It's super nice haha. I wish i could reach even higher than i can, to like high C or something in male voice like real tenors can. If i'm not wrong, real tenors can reach to notes like B or C. I can only reach F comfortably haha but okay i guess it's already very fortunate. At least i've low falsetto to cover for the lack of high notes.

I'm quite tired now. Lucky tomorrow morning got nothing. I think? -checks- Ok heng don't have. Ok i think i shall go sleep. Oh throat feels funny because i drank tap water. Bleh. K shouldn't do that next time, shan't be lazy and make the trip downstairs to get distilled water.

Alright, goodnight world. Sing well later! =)

Hmm. I am tired. I need more sleep. I think i'll sleep more tonight. Do i have to go school early tomorrow?? Hm. Don't think so right? Okay.

Okay i'm tired. I don't want to blog.