>.< I'm just feeling so tired now. But then again i don't want to sleep i just want to stay up forever and just listen to music and not go school, not face whatever's there for me to do, for me to settle. It's especially frustrating when there's nothing, or not much that can really be done to the situation. People have their own brains, their own thinking, their own feelings. Nobody owns people, nobody can tell someone outright to do something for them if that person really doesn't want to. Unless of course he is tied down or tortured so hard until he submits but well that's hardly possible or polite. I might just get a white slip.

CTs are coming and i seriously feel like they're so freaking annoying? Don't really know if the problem is with me or what but maybe it is after all. But then it can't really be either. Oh whatever i'm meandering, as my GP teacher described my essay. Well I was, because i wasn't in a mood to write an essay so i was practically writing rubbish. Haha not like i did any worse or better than usual so i guess i write rubbish most of the time anyway.

So anyway I think I have become a coffee addict again. I discovered that the coffee at S11 is really good and it makes me want to go there everyday just to buy it but obviously i'm not going to because my fats will protest wildly if i make them move the X hundred m to S11. Oh yes of course my skin will complain too because of the sun and UV rays. Those are only useful for free radical substitution you know.

It's one of those nights again where 2am sounds really early and 11.05pm (the time now) is like what? you're going to sleep? And i listen to beautiful choral music voices which make such nice blend and sound and overtone. I guess that's the beauty of a choir isn't it. As much as some may think that their voice is insignificant in such a large group, that is absolutely not true because everyone has a part to play, whether to help make it better, or worse. Haha. But anyway yes this sort of music is just not achievable with 1 person or weird digital things. Frankly it can actually be considered very intimate, because the sound you produce is unique, and well it's really produced from your own body, and yours only. The instrument cannot be simply transferred around from one person to another. And not only that, it involves so many other things than just singing. Listening, interpretation, perception, expression.

Why am i rambling?