Morning! The cheese cake i'm eating is SUPER nice from NYDC. Yummy fatty phelgm-inducing cheese cake =)
AHHHH Common Tests are over! Yay. But that's the only thing about it that i'm happy about. I completely burst the physics paper which was shockingly even harder than the chem paper. So yes, i'm hoping i can scrap a C or D or something. Ok whatever it can go eat itself.

So anyway recently, ok not that recently, but kinda found out that i'm different from my siblings in that i can't exactly sleep very very well. Like i'm the kind who take super long to fall asleep. Will just toss and turn and my mind will be full of random stuff then unless i'm real tired, i might even sleep only 1 whole hour later (i can hear my clock chime). Then in the morning, usually will auto wake up around 8+ 9 like that. (assuming no school la). Whereas like the rest of the world except my parents are still sound asleep. My siblings can all sleep until like 1pm one lor. Yar if i sleep late also usually not SO late i think. 11? That's assuming i manage to sleep all the way till then. Hm. Okay randomness.

Our poor sound reflectors were dismantled yesterday. It was like 10 times faster dismantling them than building them. They did it in a few hours compared to how many weeks of late nights building them. Big thanks to Ivan for being in charge and responsible for the whole thing!! =)

Anyway watched fantastic 4 yesterday. Hee. It was quite different from the first movie. This movie focussed a lot more on emotions and like humanity and kindness and some of the conversations were so mushy it was like !!!! -covers ears- Ya but overall it was a good movie until bennett next to me started reading out the chinese subtitles. Naturally i slapped him and he shuttup -.- Yar. K everyone who hasn't watched it should kinda catch it if they have time, but it isn't say a super must see either. Ah just go watch it.

I haven't watched shrek 3 yet! And i'm wondering if they're actually still screening it in the cinemas? Yesterday at J8 it didn't seem that way. Didn't see any timings for it leh. Burst. Was it good? Nevermind nowadays DVDs and VCDs usually release quite soon after the movie itself comes out. To reduce people buying pirated ones i guess. Maybe will go rent it or buy it or something. Bleh. K my throat feels all phlegmmy with cheese now.

OKAY i have nothing to blog about now so i shall post this and go and find something to do since all my pig of a siblings are still snoozing in their rooms and my parents are out eating breakfast. Yawnz. See ya all =)

I conclude that my chemistry is so dead, i shouldn't even bother going for the paper tomorrow.

But what the heck maybe i can push my grade from a U to an S. Heehee.

Just attempted the CT paper for last year and i either got everything wrong, or didn't know how to do. I think i scored 5 marks myself. -Am proud of myself- Yeah ya get the idea.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

BYE BYE I AM GOING TO MUG AND TRY TO SALVAGE THE HORRIBLE TERRIBLE SITUATION.

MY idea of the coefficients of PED.

MORE THAN 1 IS ELASTIC. LESS THAN 1 IS INELASTIC. EQUALS TO 1 IS SPASTIC.

HAHAHA not funny. Sorreh couldn't resist =)

I conclude my pee is green coz i keep drinking green tea. =)

NOH rubbish.

Tomorrow is first day of CTs and i KNOW i am going to burst everything ya but whatever. Chionging econs now heh. The only maths practise i had was like yesterday evening from 6pm to when i slept at 1am. And like 70% of it was mugging lecture notes coz i completely forget how to draw graphs, differentiate, integrate, and how to find an inverse function. I looked at the first qn of the june hols thing then i was like o_O wa-HAT never see before.

Can't wait for CTs to be over really. I think i don't mind studying generally. But only when i have enough time. Like now, it's obvious i don't have enough time in just 1 week to rush everything. So the feeling is like 'study a bit here a bit there, also will die. So why waste time studying?!'. xD Okay completely wrong attitude but it's happening. But forcing myself to study!!

Anyway have decided to be guai and good boy in term 3 and focus and listen and must do super well =) Ok but like must focus on this week first. Bleh can't wait for next 4 days to faster fly by and just disappear. Heehee.

K let me get back to government intervention which is totallay so exciting man.

Random thought of the day.

You know how car horns generally have 2 pitches, usually a third apart. Well if you didn't then go and listen. Anyway, shouldn't the manufacturers make like a clash chord? So that it's more jarring and annoying. Or like .. 2 pitches so like after the annoying driver gets out of the way, then you can press a 'thank you' horn such that the 'outta my way' horn and the 'thank you' horn form like a candence. xD. (Yes it's time to roll your eyes now)

I am horrendously behind time. I'm such a bad boy was like chatting on phone with benjamin until 230am?! From 11pm. Initially wanted to take a break at 11pm then go mug at 1130 then well, obviously that failed. =) Thanks for being such a great friend and listener!!!! =)

Oh! After i got back from hols, decided to randomly listen to Il Divo songs and fell in love with "I believe in you" which they sang with Celine Dion. Super nice. Go listen. =)

OKAY this is totally annoying but i better get back to studying. =(

I am being a bad boy and using the computer.

After not seeing cockroaches in my house for more than 5 years, i saw 2 in a row yesterday. Screams. And 1 was in my room. I almost died. But nevermind the cockroach ended up dying instead =)

Hai, CTs are obviously coming up as the entire world knows so if you're a student reading this then you're a bad student. Should be mugging!! xD. I am super duper slow and behind time and will confirm do super duper badly coz i only started studying on Sat after i came back.

Hee looking at chorale blog now and chalet pictures. JAC YOU'RE SO BIMBO!!! HAHAHA.

Okay as usual i am being super random.

Anyway, hols were super fun and relaxing. I put on the 4kg i lost prior to going off. Heh. So yes i am like fat and rounder again. Alaska was really nice. It's very not big city kind of place. And like nobody cares about fashion and stuff there so like everyone just dresses to the weather and all. Althought it was supposed to be like late spring or something, there was like snow and stuff because it was still really cold.

So toured alaska on land for 3 days, going from place to place, taking trains. It was really just relaxing and a big waste of time. But like enjoying all the wild life and clean air is just a nice change from all the pollution around. The air there smells sweet all the time because of all the plants and flowers and trees and everything. Hardly any pollution!!

It was the 7 day cruise after that. Whee that was when i got fat man. Food on board is free. So go restaurants to eat (expect the special ones) is free as well. Like can order appetiser, soup, salad, main course (2 if you like) dessert (3 if you like) and ya don't have to pay. So naturally, everyone eats more. Morning breakfast is buffet, and everyone eats a lot in buffets. Lunch and dinner is that restaurant style with like how many dishes. So you can imagine how much i ate =) Haha!

We docked 3 times in 3 different places in Alaska. The first place we were supposed to take a helicopter onto some glacier and dog sled, but unfortunately the weather was quite bad so it got cancelled. So we try to hurry up book and managed to get to go horse riding (my sister was estatic coz she's like this weird horse lover) and ouch i had like inner thigh muscle ache the next day. Ride horse for like >1 hour is no joke. Hee. Then my poor sister (the other one who doesn't really fancy horses) got a super naughty horse that started cantering halfway and she got super frightened. Haha! So like the guide brought her horse to the front and held the reins for her. Then her horse kept trying to bite the guide's horse so like the guide ended up punching her horse before it stopped. Quite amusing heh. So like ride through the forest and stuff so that was when it was suuuper nice like the air was the purest air i've ever breathed that kind. =) Afternoon went dog sleding. But not on the glacier though, on the ground.

Oh. Huskies are TOTALLY not those fluffy kind you see on tv. Like normal huskies that are used for racing actually all look so different from each other. Majority of those i saw were in fact all short haired. And their coats and face shape and sizes are all different. So yar it's quite interesting. Because like they're all mixed and bred here and there so there is like a huge variety. Fun fun got to carry a baby huskie (which was huge). Super cute =D

So back on ship and eat super full dinner. Oh yar anyway our room on the ship was super duper squeezy. Because it's meant for 2 people, but coz got 3 of us (my 2 sisters and me) so they opened like this bed that dropped from the ceiling so it's essentially a double deck bed. We had a balcony though so can stand outside and look outside. But it was really cold most of the time, so ya.

2nd place we stopped at we went whale watching. Humpback whales!! Most of the time just get to see their tails and stuff la. But haha it was interesting and nice and well, don't get to see whales everyday!! So anyway most of the towns like the first one (Skagway) and this one called Juneau are all super small towns. Skagway's the smallest and has like no roads leading into it. So everything is either by air or sea. Oh super funny they have this school that's like i think all the way from young to high school or something. Then it's only 120 people, and last year 4 people graduated from that school. Hahaha. That's how small it is. Oh and it's filled with jewellery stores. Like 19 of them in that small town. And like there's 1 bank, 1 post office, and 1 of all the necessary stuff but 19 jewellery stalls. They don't have like even 1 official doctor there i think. So if someone gets really sick, then must airlift them to Juneau which is a larger town.

So yes went back on the cruise and cruised over night. Then in the day we cruised to this glacier. Went right up to it. It was BIIIIG. Wow but glaciers are really just WOW. Haha! And it's quite sad la, because our cruise ship kinda just stoned in front of it for an hour. Then if you keep watching, blocks and chunks of ice just keep dropping from the glacier into the sea. So it's like global warming and receding glaciers and rising sea water action right in front of our eyes. Haha! So then the ship turned around and let the other people on the other side watch for another hour (yes it may sound very HUH and like lame but it's soooo peaceful and quiet and the water doesn't even move that it's just nice standing there watching this massive piece of ice) before sailing off.

Actually i might have got the order wrong. OH oops. The glacier was on the 2nd day before we even docked the first time. Sorreh, cut and paste to the post before horse riding. =)

Okay anyway after Juneau (where there was no more glacier sighting) sailed overnight again and docked in Ketchikan where we went -gasp- kayaking. Yar like OBS except this one's better coz it's more stable and has a RUDDER. So ya i was sitting behind while my sis sat in front. She has absolutely no sense of steering so ya. So just press my foot to the left if i wanna turn left, press to the right if i wanna turn right. So much easier than OBS haha. So it was just like to be bo liao and kayak around la. Nothing much to see. But THEN when we were arriving back to shore, guess what we saw.

KILLER WHALES. It was super duper freaky can because we're at sea level and they were like 200 m away from us. And all we can see is the fin sticking out of the water and that was so big it was so scary already. Imagine if like we could see the entire whale. And killer whales actually kill and eat like other whales. Not sure if they ate humans but i wasn't willing to find out. My sister was like 'LET'S GO CLOSER AND SEE OMGOMGOMG' and i was like 'THANK GOD I HAVE THE POWER TO CONTROL OUR KAYAK SO WE CAN STEER AWAY'. So kinda stoned there staring in awe for a long time before we suddenly realised everyone else had left (either in fear or we were really stoning for damn long) and then faster kayak back to shore. Phew! On our whale watching and stuff in Juneau only got to see humpback whales which eat shrimp and small stuff. Yar. They look completely different from killer whales.

So back to the ship. Ate big fat dinner and then next day cruised for a full day at sea before cruising overnight again and finally arriving in Vancouver, Canada the next morning!! So yeah got off then went to the hotel. And then shopping!! Haha! For that whole day and the next day in canada. Mostly bought clothes. Oh you know, starbucks has like totally invaded and colonized vancouver. I come out of my hotel, turn right, i see starbucks, turn left, i see starbucks. Literally. I was like HUH didn't i see a starbucks on my left??? So ya in 1 street, i saw 6 starbucks. Like same road. Then got one super funny. It's a cross road. Then at 2 corners are 2 starbucks facing each other. I was so amused. Like hmm oh this starbucks is crowded let's cross the road to the other one! So in total i saw 7 starbucks in 2 streets in 2 days.

So after 2 days in Vancouver, coz we flew Cathay Pacific, so flew to Hong Kong and spent 2 more days there. MORE SHOPPING. Muahaha. I only saw 2 starbucks there though. Hm the pollution there is like really bad. Because hong kong has like a harbour right, then looking across to the other side with all the buildings, most of the time it looks like it's covered in fog or as if it's raining that kind. Quite bad. Or maybe i just came from alaska where it was super clean haha. Vast difference from like lazy relaxing kind of lifestyle to busy city lifestyle. Ah well.

Oh HEE i almost died of shock when i saw Ms Lim in Hong kong. It was really a coincidence but she didn't hear me when i called her name though. So after 2 days of shopping, came home and well. BACK TO REALITY which i'm still not embracing because i'm here blogging about my holiday -.-

SIIIIGH okay anyway i've managed to be vaguely disciplined and uproot my stuff to the library where there's NO COMPUTER to distract me. Hee. Okay. I think i better go off and study now it's been almost an hour haha. And my sister is bugging me to decide what to eat for lunch -.-

Okay if you survived reading this post, it's time to go and STUDDDDDY coz it probably took you quite a while to read it HAHA. =) Good luck everyone for CTs!!

Hello! I haven't blogged in ages as you all obviously can see. Decided to remove my tagboard because it's getting spam. Will find a new one when i come back.

Anyways, leaving overseas tomorrow! Will be back in like 10 years time so must miss me okay! =)

Last week's been really hectic. A lot of work to do and planning and coordinating and getting used to information overload. I'm still quite worried about things since I'm suddenly leaving tomorrow for 3 weeks haha but looking at how things are going, I'm also reassured that they will all go smoothly =)

It will be a busy year ahead, but I really hope things go smoothly, and not just maintain their level but also improve and get better. Lots of encouragement, goal setting, bonding, and magic-making. It won't be very easy, but with everyone's combined effort, I believe we can all do it =) We have to try, and only with trying then can we know what we are capable of.

Anyways just realised i'm completely dead for Common Tests. I have ONE week to study when i get back, and i am totally behind time in the first place. So i have to catch up and figure out what's going on, understand and let my brain go 'Oooooo' before i can start practising and blah di blah. Which is NOT possible in one week, but i shall attempt. Yes. I shall attempt. =) BECAUSE IF I DON'T I WILL JUST GET MURDERED BY MY MUM. RAWR.

Okay i've decided to change my mind and find a tagboard now coz my blog looks really empty without it. Yawnz. I am tired.

-5 mins later-

FWAH so efficient i've found one. Actually i just koped it off someone's blog and clicked on the link la. Don't really like it because i prefer the big box when typing the messages. But aiya okay nevermind I'll survive with this =) The Spam on my old one is really getting too much! Okay i shall post this and put the tagboard up =).

See you all in 3 weeks time and be good! xD

Silver

Hey everyone. Yes, RJ chorale got silver 2 days ago.

Naturally we would all feel really sad. I do, in a way, when the results came out. It was like this big hammer knocked me on the head and i was like OUCH and i just like numbly clapped. I didn't really know what to think at that time.

And then we went and gathered outside of VCH.

Seeing everyone standing there, with sad looks, some trying to smile. Geoffrey eating his pizza as if nothing happened. Somehow i felt yes, we didn't make it, but we tried, and in trying, the whole process and all the past 4+ months putting in all those hours and effort for concert and SYF was just all .. just so much much more important and invaluable compared to the results from a 15 mins performance.

Of course we felt sad, duh. But we stood as a choir. Taking our photos, and eventually getting high as a choir when we went out for dinner. How we just talked and laughed and joked at bennett's video. Afterwards, we moved to the steps outside and just sat down and talked. It was a wonderful. Really. Just enjoying the night with ourselves, with this feeling of ONE and togetherness. And what's more is that we continued to sing and despite having fallen, we still had the spirit to sing and laugh and everything. Many of us didn't want that spirit and feeling to leave us. Which was probably why i didn't feel like going home at all. I wouldn't have if my dad didn't call me at 11.

I think the whole experience has really moved me and i really don't regret a single thing in the past 5 months. If anything, i wish it wouldn't end. Yesterday wednesday afternoon, i came home and felt so depressed because i wasn't used to coming home early. Chorale, and the entire singing experience, of music making, of friendship, of laughter and joy and hours spent together making art, is just something that i wish i could have all my life. These are the things that are really so much more important than getting a gold with honours. They are the things that really touch the heart and seep into the mind and body. Nothing any award or material thing can provide.

Quotes Hui Lin: "We lost, but we gained. And perhaps what we gained really outweighs what we lost." And i think she's right. It is only the beginning of great things to come.

Yes we got a silver, but i think in all our hearts, what we got was a million times more than that. I LOVE YOU CHORALE! =) We are indeed born to sing.

-ponders- I realised i haven't really smiled in a long. Like a real genuine smile. Hmm. Okay so what's the definition of 'long'. Hmm..

Woke up with my throat screaming again bleh. But it feels vaguely better now after drinking 2 cups of ginseng with salt and 2 cups of luo han guo last night and now drinking this like 1000mg vitamin C effervescence thingzie after taking flu/cough/sore throat medicine. Bleh it sucks to be sick. Cannot randomly go around the house blasting to my siblings who'll scream at me to shut up (hee i usually ignore them)

OH and i cannot taste ANYTHING i eat which is even worse. I just feel like i'm eating mash and chewing on rubber or something. Green phlegm is disgusting but now it's turning pale yellow hee perhaps got reaction going on. Like my cough medicine is the spastic titrant.

Moving on. Got yucky physics test on thursday and i'm not in a mood to study at ALL. Like projectile motion more like projectile vomiting. -pukes all over my keyboard- Oo green phlegm.

AHHH okay i'm supremely bored someone please save me before i strangle someone. Okay maybe i'll go downstairs and scream at my sister. Hee. She's too happy for my liking.. Hmm.

tata people.

Hey people it's been ages since i last blogged. I think i've been so busy that there really hasn't been time to blog. And now finally, i'm taking a break and just well, spending some time i guess to write some stuff here.

Got really sick this week which is terrible as SYF is just next tuesday. Sigh. I'm coughing non stop and it's dry cough so it like.. causes a terrible sore throat. Aiya, what to do. I think i was probably too stressed up and worried last week over things i don't have a control over. Sometimes, maybe it really is very difficult to care so much when others don't care as much as i do. Then it just becomes so frustrating, like this sense of helplessness and wanting to murder someone. heh. But i guess sometimes, it's just perhaps too late to change things, because it will take up too much time, or that just a few people wanting something to happen is not enough to be able to make everyone see their way. Worrying just makes things worse and in a way can't exactly solve the problem. Aiya.

Not like i really found a solution, just found a compromise i guess.

4 more days to SYF. I think we can make it if we try real hard. But then again, almost everyone has been putting in hours and hours of practise. The question really is, is it fruitful? Do we learn something only to forget it the next practice. Is the time spent proportionate to the amount we improve?

Think a lot of it is our mentality. Sometimes i feel that perhaps we are singing so much, or trying hard, for what? To please Mr Toh? Or is it really to try to make the magic we can out of the music. Somtimes i just have a feeling that people are going through the motion of things. Like 'ok we gotta get GWH' so they work and work and work. But then it's like, working blindly? Don't really know. It's like as if it's not really a target set by themselves, but rather, set by someone else. And because they're in choir so it's their 'duty' to sing and practise and do their best. But it's just missing the point that it should all be for ourselves. There has to be that extra.. inner motivation and passion, before we can ownself want to further improve our music, and make more out of what we have. Instead, they're being pushed along and nudged along. There's no urge to go beyond the target we set and say WOW we only needed 100% but we managed to reach 150%.

I sometimes really believe in drilling things into the choir as well. I mean, drilling in a smart way. Like not doing 10thousand times only to have forgotten it afterwards. And i guess the thinking ahead part is really true la. Like must think ahead like what's coming and what we must do. That's just the initial.. Eventually it should really become 2nd nature such that no matter under what circumstances, it will be as it has always been. And not forgetten and realised only after the damage has been done. And then regret. Like that, what's the point? So sad isn't it.

But then again, i can't expect everyone to be as passionate about chorale/music-making. That would simply be the ideal choir. Haha. So perhaps there's just something lacking. I don't know. We need some form of inspiration? And of course, the inspiration towards the correct thing. We cannot think of like 'GWH!!' or 'yes yes practise really hard and try really hard!' because i think in like, art, there has to be this extra ooomph and well, passion for it before it can be taken 1 step further to cross that line. Yes like why would passion and stuff appear in our music? But like Mr Toh said, emotions of a person can be sensed, and like he said that though CJ may be out of tune, but they're making music. And i think because the people there are really trying hard to try to make music. The point is music as a whole idea, and not like singing individual parts, or trying to stay in tune, or just keeping in rhythm. There has to be this entire sense. Just this beeeeg picture. Don't really know how to explain lehz.

Ah well after all we only have 4 days left. So once again, we can just keep trying and trying. After all sacrificing another 4 days of our lives isn't going to take much =)

Heyy people. Ahh it's finally friday and my super long terrible terrible week is finally over! Been really busy this week man. What with econs lecture on tuesday, super late choir on wed, staying up on wed night to rush PI till 1am, finally managed to get a nice break yesterday, and today. Oh gosh and not forgetting napfa. Bleh.

I totally burst it man this year. Ok but i'm not going to bother retaking it or whatever. I shall attempt to work hard and do much much better next year. Bleh, it's like, bad until really bad. Okay, moving on. =)

Today's RV's SYF omg so exciting!! It's 5.30pm and the results should be out already! So exciting. Really really hope they get gold with honours lor =) And of course us as well, on the 8th of may. Yay we can do it!! =D.

Ah auditions tomorrow morning. I think julian's going to pop by tonight (assuming he's not tired or whatever) and we're gonna practise a bit. Hee he's my blending partner. Heh, i shall ask him to record schedrivka with me later then can hear overtone mmmmm. =) Heee ok what rubbish.

I find it really amusing whenever i walk by the ATM machine really especially in the mornings then i hear it playing music. Hee. Then i always laugh to myself. Ha, spastic.

Okay i'm obviously being really random again. Hm my M1 bill for last month bursted like no one's business. $81!! Oh my. I sent like >800 smses oh crap. But well my new plan is student plan then got 1000 free! Yay! Haha. Hopefully if i burst (which means i send a LOT of messages) it won't burst by that much lor. And yay i love free incoming now i don't worry whenever my friends call me on my phone even when i'm home (i really hated that last time) and per second billing (so like if i call my friend to ask a simple 'where are you' for 10 seconds i don't get charged 1 entire minute). Hee.

Happy people.

Happy people sing! Okay so if you see me singing means i'm happy. =) And my classmates are all really used to me singing randomly in class heh. Thank you for not killing me or shutting me up. Nice bunch of people hee =)

Ok perfect example. Julian just called me on my handphone! Ha. Well so yar now with free incoming i just talk and not complain. Okay anyway he claims his voice is vaguely soft today but he's still coming over after dinner. Hmm..

Spent the afternoon basically slacking quite a bit, then tried to record like.. 10 seconds of a song. I THINK it's not bad shall.. ask people to comment later. Muahaha. Yeah then tried to sleep but couldn't really sleep, was just drifting around.. Ah shall sleep earlier tonight la, then tomorrow will be full of energy for chorale! Oh no! It's at 8am because of auditions. Ah okay means gotta wake up at 7am. Yawnz.. Hmm .

Ok happy people shall go walk around house. Byee =)

Hello! Wow. Wow. Concert's over. I KNEW i should have blogged last night when emotions were all running around and i could truly express how i felt. But i shall try to recall what i was feeling.

Concert was great. Ya sure we weren't perfect or as in tune as we are during rehearsals. But i dunno, it was just different. Fringe was wonderful despite the bump in the choreography. And the last chord for duerme was just OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG.

What i miss now isn't so much the concert itself, but really the whole process leading up to the concert. All the hard work for practices, numerous fringe pracs, all the dinners, the sore throats, the screaming my lungs out for magnum.

And i just felt very satisfied after the concert. Although we didn't perform our best, it there was just this feeling of ahhhh. and oooo.. =) I don't really know how to put it. Haha! But i love chorale and the magic we make!! =) Heeeee. And FRINGIES!

Oh how all of you have enriched my life and made it so much.. fuller! Thank you all of you for the wondrous times we spent together. And even though concert's over, we totally must still carry on the fringie spirit and do stuff together and have fun and make even more magic and music! Whee i can't wait to get recording and relive the performance =) Haha. Whee.

yay yay yay. Oh anyway, i decided today shall be the day i change my handphone number. I'm like so not gonna announce it on my blog so if you don't already have it, please come and find me. My old number will still be around stoning in my other phone at home i guess and i'll check it for maybe about a week in case got random people who still don't know about my new number. Heh.
Sighs. Earlier was listening to duerme from the what sweeter music album and i was like having goosebumps remembering our performance last night. Ahhh. Think sometimes it REALLY is about the process and not the outcome. Lalala. I LOVE YOU FRRRIIINGEEEEEEE.

Okay i should stop being high. Oh yes. And thank you EVERYONE who came down to watch. Mee wonderful family and my dad for fetching me at 12am after supper =). My aunty for her GIANT bouquet of flowers. My OG friends and their insistance at making me wear back my cravat so that my photo will be nice. My classmates (including the lousy cheapo AV people =P) for coming down and just being there. Erh. Ex-classmates for always supporting me at every concert =) And ya even though u straight away suanned me i still love you all hee =) Mahjong k?? And the random people i didn't know were coming but were there anyway. =) Yay...

Ah.. Ok well time to go and do PW and study econs which is totally NOT going to work because my mind is.. not there. Oh man. Okay 2.4 on wednesday and 5 stations on friday. Back to reality. Xian xian xian..... Ok i think i shall turn on the aircon my room is baking in the afternoon-evening sun. Heh. =)

Hmm another random thought and idea? No not idea. Erm, just something that occurred to me. NOT in the toilet sadly but while i was eating dinner. Anyway. It's like how everyone has a name right? And like how everyone in Singapore is unique coz we also have NRIC numbers and such. Then it also occurred to me that we all have another number. Which is like.... our HANDPHONE numbers!! And like although not all of us have phones, but like 99.999999% have handphones, and every number is different. So like, yeah we all have our own unique 'number' in that sense too. So like. 2 numbers. Yay. Should combined them then become 1 number!

I really believe now that we perform WAY better at night compared to daytime. And i guess that's good (in a way) since our concert is at night. But i hope we aren't shocked by any sound difference (if any) due to the presence of audience. And hopefully they're all good audiences =) Haha! Fringe sounded TERRIBLE at the pre-choir soundcheck and like we were all super demoralized. Maybe that's why we managed to sound much better at the atrium post-prac. Or was it because Mr Toh was there? =P Anyhow, we're all boosted and now that Mr Toh has given us some sort of direction for the last phase we can work it out tomorrow and give a great performance on Saturday Yay!!! Must Must Must! All that hard work and staying back so late every week MUST pay offf!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I realise my life is really upside down this week like everything is a mess. I'm SO glad tests are all next week then at least i can just chiong after concert. I bet you i'll have post concert blues and just moan and sob on sunday =P Then cannot study econs then fail. heh. But cannot la. I want to do well in econs. It's a fun subject to do well in. Heh. Whee okay 2 more days. We can do it!!

As you can probably tell i'm vaguely hyper and high. Dad's coming home tonight too (he went to jakarta) yay. His flight arrives in approximately.. 20 mins time. He's cabbing home because my driver was sick just now then so he went home after fetching me. Sister is taking the mrt from dunno where she is to meet him.

Okays i shall stop here because i think i've work to do, though i'm probably going to end up not doing it anyway. Heh. See ya all =)

Morning! Wah i woke up and walked into my toilet, then it occurred to me that recently, my home has become like a hotel. Come home so late at night, bathe, sleep, next morning leave so early already.. Oh well guess it's just this period la. But today don't have any choir related stuff in the afternoon so i'm going to come home after school and SLEEP! I totally need it man.. And faster catch up with my tutorials. Heh. Okay.. Tired of typing on handphone. Shall get back to eat breakfast! :)

Hii! Quick post today after chorale prac. Wow i've been standing for the past 5 hours and my feet are DYYYYING. They're screaming in pain. And like, they're strictly off the floor until i gotta wash up then like, back off until tomorrow morning. =)

Haha, today i was super duper tired the entire day and during chem prac i was like screaming and moaning in agony and telling my friends to kill me out of sheer tiredness. Like take me out of this agony.. I'm amazed i'm still awake now blogging heh.

Anyway recently i've been feeling rather emo coz like. I dunno, felt like sometimes i put in so much effort for some things, and yet people take it for granted? And nobody really cares or acknowledges it and just takes it like 'orh chris is supposed to do this all the time anyway..' that kind of feeling. And i was just feeling annoyed and irritated and like, felt like giving everything up. Like what's the point? I try so hard and yet nobody cares. But just now was in toilet (like since all great revelations come to my when i'm in the toilet), and i realised that sometimes, as long as i myself know i've tried my best for what i've done, and no matter if people recognize it or not, it's okay because i've not let myself down, or even worse, given up just because people ignore it. And like who cares! I think this inner satisfaction instead of people voicing their appreciation for whatever i've done is soooo much more worth it and valuable. Yay. =) But does NOT mean i won't appreciate if you say nice stuff about me okay =) HAHAHA.

Okay i shall like, go off soon because my brain is screaming for sleep, yet my feet are screaming for me not to stand up. But i'm sorry la feet, you've only been suffering for 5 hours, brain suffer since 630 this morning liao =P K ciao everyone! And i'm feeling happy =D

Oh like i found this picture in my folder!! Haha! This picture was taken when we went on a learning journey to new zealand in sec 3. Haha. Bennett so cute =)

Haiya was supposed to help with painting, but my parents ambushed me and made me look through their 600 pictures which they took in Egypt to sort them out and select those which we'll send for developing. Then like finish. Then suddenly "oh! we haven't looked at cambodia pictures!" then okay look look.. then "Oh! Japan pictures!!" then i was like -.-.-.-.-. Then look look then finish already 2+. Then i called them and they finished painting already. Bleh okay so no point going down..

I'm supremely bored now. Got homework to do but i don't feel like doing. Not in the mood. Sigh. Wish i had something else to do. =( It's like how now with concert and SYF, chorale is just about what my life revolves around for these few weeks. Then now like today no chorale stuff to do then suddenly very empty then like eh?? Thrown out of momentum. (is there such a phrase?) Ok but nevermind. Better force myself to do homework after this!!!

Wonder if tmr got fringe prac not, since there's chorale at night. Hope we have! I think we need it. Heh. And fringe pracs are generally fun too =)

Okay i'll go find something amusing to entertain myself now.

Hmm. Fringe prac this morning was normal standard i guess. We did recordings and we still have problems to iron out, but hopefully it can be done by concert day. I still don't think we sound very optimum and erh, somehow still sound farni lehhz.... I was listening a lot to tuning during the entire fringe prac. And like to the entire sound. After prac, suddenly had this really weird surreal moment. Like.. I dunno how to explain. Suddenly my ears felt really sensitive. Like i could hear everything. Hui Lin and val talking, the diff pitches of their voices. Wenhao and how he shuffles his feet. People downstairs from the amphitheatre. People behind me shouting away. And like i suddenly felt like covering my ears and having silence. And well i did, and it helped. Anyway, it went away after i went to help with the tiers and boxes. Interesting feeling, heh, wonder if i'll ever get it again.

Went to S11 to dao bao food for lunch. Choir prac was not bad. I think our standard is quite good liao and our concert is gonna be goooood! Oh but like i so love the LT1 acoustics compared to LT4. Dunno why. But i just think we sound better and we can hear better in LT1. Sound reflectors? =P Had like really tired moments while singing. Oh and like i had stomach ache halfway -.- Then i was like thinking whether or not to go toilet but after a while i was like ah heck then just carried on singing. Luckily it went away. But i ended up having diarrhea when i came home. According to joo who sat out at the 2nd half of prac after punch/quartet performed we sound excruciatingly good. =) Well that's a good thing to hear. Haha! Yayy. Anyway.

Think at this stage all of us should really just put in like whatever we have left and push forward and do our best for this concert. But of course must reserve energy for SYF which is only shortly after that. Which was why no matter how tired i felt just now i kept trying to push and sing as perfectly as possible. Ah better not suddenly lose my voice or get sick though that would be a tragedy.

After prac was stoning waiting for my dad alone. Then i was just like.. thinking. I was trying to find like a reason and a link between things. Like for example between me and a friend. Like why are we friends? Or like, what makes things click? But then i suddenly realised that for some things, we really don't have to scrutinize and try to comprehend so deeply. It's just there and the fact that it exists is the very reason why it should exist and there's no point in trying to find out why it exists.

Hmm. Okay anyway Lois said to me just now that i look very calm when i sing. Like.. my face looks quite relaxed and i look like i sing very easily. Is it true? Never seen my own facial expressions before. Heh. K comment and tell me =P

Post from my phone

Oh my god. This is like super cool! I ended going with my dad to buy a new phone! So now i've got a new number coz i switched to starhub. But not changing to use it yet because the number isn't fixed yet, may change. Ok anyway, e phone has like wireless internet so i'm connected to it now and posting this post from my phone! I've no idea how to enter and make a new paragraph though.. Must go and find out. Haha! Wow if like school has wireless around then can go and tap and use? Ah dunno. Ok.. Shall post this and go bug around and see what other functions the phone has. Haha! See ya all! :)

Com lab PW

Hello! Haha i'm in the com lab again for PW. Hm. Shall ask the teacher to look at my PI shortly after posting this. Maths this morning was boring.. After this physics then maths tutorial.

Yayy!! The 'outing' to my house this afternoon kinda bursted coz everyone ends so late. So at first i wanted to go home and sleep. But instead i asked my dad if i could get a new phone (HAHAHA). My V3 is more than 2 years old. But i very bu she de leh. Really like it. But it's screwing up quite big time. Smses always get stuck. Like never sent out, or cannot receive. Then like i'll receive it 1 day later after i restart my phone. Blehs. And the battery life now is like.. Once i make a phone call, it'll go into low battery mode -.-

Aiya, but it's like worth only $50 for trade in i think, so probably not gonna bother trading it in. Just keep as spare phone then when i miss it i'll take it out and use it =P Haha! Okay, i'm probably changing to starhub also coz my m1 plan isn't very good and ideal (keep bursting smses!!). Yeah okay, so if i change number then you know why =)

Lalala. Okay shall go and find teacher now to look at my work. Tata!

Prac today was goooood. I could sing excruciatingly well today (like i reached Ab with no problem). I was happy. But still tired. Think coz i slept at 12am last night, was just chatting with friends. Heh. MSN messenger is the devil in disguise =)

I feel asleep in like econs tutorial today. I have GOT to stop sleeping. So tonight hopefully i can go sleep early early again then at least tomorrow can stay awake in school, not to mention there's gonna be night chorale prac! But it's gonna be fun i think. =) Hopefully everybody isn't too tired from school. I'm probably coming home first. Hee then can rest and bathe.

Hmm.. feeling vaguely happy now but still farni farni feeling lehz.

Okay i'm vaguely annoyed now. I also dunno why lehz. Someone cheer me upppp!!