Heyy. Okay how ironic, that after the previous post, i suddenly do feel like blogging after all. I've had like the worst 2 days in a long time, and they just had to come consecutively. But i realised that both days were terrible because of terrible timing issues. Sigh.

Yesterday was like supposed to celebrate mum's birthday. So usually we always have dinners right, but then brother supposedly had game at night, so move to afternoon lunch. Then oops already called venue comm to come decor house, so bo pian anyway no time. So then so pai seh had to leave them at my house while i went to eat lunch. Come back, my stoopid brother dunno run where, then i had haircut appointment at 4pm. Then he come and come back at 345, then supposed to cut cake. Then i accidentally dropped the stupid camera in the car, so spent time finding, then burst couldn't find. Then my spastic brother spastic then angry or what shit then just left. -.- Then after he left we found the cam. By then everyone angry liao lor anyway i was late for haircut so left to cut hair. Not a single picture for my mum's birthday this year.

Today got RGS choir concert, wanted to go for damn long then come out got rehearsal for prometheum day. Then end up end at like 7pm then like damn spastic la no choice come home stone while everyone go and watch the concert at 730. Coz like by the time if rush there also end up 8pm then can reach also so lame. So now i'm stoning here while the entire world is enjoying themself. Sigh.

Doesn't help that i haven't had 8 hours of sleep the whole of last week, and the weekend, and last night. So i think i might just go and sleep at 10pm later. Thank god my sister doesn't have to work tomorrow so i can squeeze out half an hour more of sleep.

Anyway. On to happier stuff =) THANKS GERALD you're really such a great friend. Thanks for accompanying me so many times when i feel down and need a friend to talk to. And esp all the times when i have cravings for coffee and you don't and you just follow me to coffee bean anyway and just sit there and watch me eat, and also like today when i had to eat dinner then you practically walked to j8 like a total of 3 times. =)

I'm like really glad i made the random (it really was) decision to join RV at the end of sec 3, because it has really changed my life a lot. I can safely say that most of my best friends come from there, and every week, every month, i'm still growing closer and closer to all of them (yes really) and getting to know them better and loving all of them even more =). Yayy. And of course the joy of singing and music and everything. I think out of the musical groups, choir is especially special because we ourselves are essentially the instruments. We don't need to carry around heavy double basses, or perhaps even light violins. All we have to do is open our mouth and just sing (it's obviously not that easy but you get the idea). And best of it all is that everyone's voice is unique to him or her. SIDETRACK -Oh omg Yong Feng if you're reading this i think your voice is DAMN nice. - And yet we can all come together and form this blend of music which when perfect, is really just so wonderful and when i hear nice sound, i never fail to be happy and brightened up. It's not like a psychological happy feeling, it's a real inside can feel everything lifting kind of happy. It's hard to tell. It's diff from the joy of hearing a nice overtone, or perfect chord, it's also taking into account what comes behind that. The hard work, the practice, the thinking and process. Really just to sing a song, there's so much to put in place. Tuning, rhythm are the basics. Followed by having tone, and dynamics. And then there are all the minute and behind-the-scenes techniques we use to get the perfect sound and blend. And the wonder of it all is that we can do this all within our body, without requiring an external instrument.

It could also be due to this reason that many people may think that singing is really easy. Because since everyone has the instrument already, so what makes us so special from others? I don't really know and i can't really tell. I think i'm still on the quest of finding out. It could be for this same reason too, that many people tend to stare whenever people sing. But yet, do people stare when you hear people practising for band, or a random person playing violin? If your voice is like an instrument, then it's as good as playing the violin or horn or trumpet or perhaps even better. Ah, but i guess maybe people stare coz the person is singing totally out of tune xD. But ok whatever.

Everyone has to make mistakes in order to improve. But i always wonder sometimes whether people are afraid of making the mistakes itself, or afraid of what might happen to them if they make a mistake. It may seem like the same thing, but i don't really think so. Because in different circumstances, people are willing to make mistakes, while in other circumstances, the same people aren't. I think that many of us including myself have to get over this phobia of making mistakes, or the phobia of what may come after the mistake. Things really aren't as scary as they seem. We're all here together to learn and improve. And if we don't dare to be bold and loud and expressive, how can we really truly see our full potential? Yes we may blunder, but after correcting ourselves, we may discover we can do things we never would have known we could do if we didn't fail in the first place.

Hm i'm listening to Soleram now, and it's my ultimate emo song. It's really nice, though quite simple. But it's always like that, simple songs sometimes are even harder to make them nice. Ah but the previous batch did a good job =) Ah whatever okay i'm getting happier haha though i'm really tired. I think i'll go sleep soon. 15 more minutes to 10pm. Seems like nobody's home yet. Ah well, nevermind. xD. Hopefully the rest of this week will go real well. Especially farewell on wednesday!! Okay, everyone pray for no rain for tomorrow (nat day celeb) and wednesday!!

See ya all soon. =D