It's funny how sometimes you emo about something, and then the next thing you know, or maybe even the next day, someone comes and talks to you and unintentionally tells you things and unintentionally affirms you that you're not the thing you think you've been, or that you're not as bad as you think you are and are in fact doing the opposite, doing a good job. Anyway.

Insipid:

1.	without distinctive, interesting, or stimulating qualities; vapid: an insipid personality.

2.	without sufficient taste to be pleasing, as food or drink; bland: a rather insipid soup.

Wahaha no wonder whenever Mr Toh says our choir is insipid he always comes up with the soup analogy, saying that we're like a bland porridge and we need to add in all the meat, the spices, chilli, onions then it'll taste nice.

I used to think that musicality is something that is perhaps in born. You have it, you have it, you don't, 爆炸. But don't think that's really true actually. How can we really be born with it? Surely it must come from somewhere. Observation, mimicking how someone does something, how someone interprets something. To have someone paint a nice big picture and then hopefully you go 'ohh i think i understand' and then truly understand and be able to reproduce it again and again. Am i talking sense here? It's like the term we learnt in bio sec 4, conditioned reflex action. I guess our brain works in a few ways, that like one is if you drill and drill and drill then finally it gets in, like primary school chinese 习字. Or like by focusing and really absorbing and taking in things and finding ways, thinking of situations and applying them whenever they come along, and not go oops after the chance is over. One way is boring and inefficient, the other is fast and has like many more positive externalities. It's up to us to choose.

If we stretch ourselves, and imagine things in our head, and really focus and pay attention, then maybe we might really be able to realise and find what we are seeking. If we don't bother, we won't find it.

Okay i don't think i'm really talking sense here. Haha! Anyway had a really long day today. But it was really fun, and fruitful though. Quite happy. Haiya i think i shall try to study a bit after this. Or not left tomorrow as the last day of weekend, then school again. Sigh. Looking forward to hols where don't have to go school, but yet it means must mug like damn hard for promos. Xian. Okay la must do well, already burst CTs =( Gogogo everyone! =) Kk i shall stop here for now. Hm think my face is vaguely sun burnt after this morning's tennis haha. Oops. K tata people!