Mr Toh: So chris, how did you do for promos?

Me: Uh.. AACC.....

Mr Toh: WOW! You can get A???

Me: (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) YESSS! I can get As okay!!

Mr Toh: Wah you so smart ah, don't need to study also can get A

Me: I got study okay!!

Mr Toh: Then...?

Me: Oh, B for GP

Mr Toh: WOW! You can write????

Me: (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) YESSS! I can write okay!!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Okay no comments xD. Anyway, was also just smsing Mr Toh and he said, in 2 different smses: (decipher the short-forms yourself)

"Chorale is gelg well. Hope e singers wl b gd ambassadors 2 potential members."

"Really encouragg 2 c chorale improvg n enjoyg."

Well obviously this is good =) Everyone say yay! YAY! Yeah but it's true we've got to really keep this up and going in preparation to receive next year's batch. It's going to be quite insane once they come in, all the rush for concert, and trip. There's really not a lot of time to bring everyone up to standard, especially if they're not used to Mr Toh's style or perhaps if they don't have choral background? So yes we must be good seniors and help everyone! =)

I'm quite tired, though i really enjoyed today's practice hahaha. Guess it's just a back-log of lack of sleep. I shall sleep soon la, and anyway tmr i end early!! So can come home and sleep (hopefully). K goodnight world. Rest your voices and sleep early!

I.HATE.SISTIC.WEBSITE.IT.SUCKS.LIKE.SOME.STRAW.SO.SOMEONE.HELP.ME.BEFORE.I.GO.INSANE.

I am going to die of diabetes if i continue the way i do. I drank a nice bubble milk tea during lunch break, bought a slurpee during alumni prac, and drank a mega cup of coffee at coffee bean before going home. Zomg.

As you can tell, i am very deprived of sleep and hence in need of the regular sugar rush and caffeine dose. And i am extremely upset that the super bimbo chic lit book i was reading has finished. No more happy things to look forward to! And seriously, these books are the BEST man because you know they're going to always end happy! AND they're so brainless i literally just waste my life away while reading them. Of course, they help me to destress a lot which is why i had read one on Sunday night before promo results. Hahahaha. Okay i need to find a new one now. NOW. SISTIC IS CAUSING ME TO LOSE LIKE 10 YEARS OF MY LIFE.

OMG. I can't freaking buy the tickets to this friday's concert because the page keeps failing to load after i managed to grab hold of the tickets but unable to make the transaction. I'm afraid that if i do, it hangs, then refresh then it double transact. -.- Zomg. I think it's best to go down and actually buy from the sistic counter. Bleh.

OMG i was blogging and i realised i was creating a post in the chorale blog!!!!! Lucky i saw then i just copied and pasted everything up there to my own blog here. -phew- Or not so embarassing i'm sure got one post ranting away about brainless things.

OMG my hotmail isn't loading either what's wrong with my internet? Rawr.

I am feeling quite hot. And i am not going to blog anymore. =( Goodnight! Rest your voices for tomorrow my dears.

I am so tired that my eyes are tearing, and they hurt a hell lot. My brain is really painful, and i've a mega headache.

But yet i don't feel like sleeping. Must be the ave maria i'm listening to -.-

I'm obviously being emo now. It always happens i guess. Certain things happen, or certain things don't happen, i notice them, and then oops i just start thinking about certain other things. Implications, meanings, reasons.

Totally need a slurpee tomorrow man or not i won't survive.

Hope everything goes well. Goodnight =)

Hm i was just looking through all my old photos because i was really bored. Well not old, but since about 2005 when we got our first digital camera. Oh, it was quite funny coz my dad didn't really trust digital cameras then, so the first few times we went on holiday we'd always bring both the digital and film camera. But oh well, actually it was a good thing la coz i remember that digi cam kept running out of battery really quickly and its memory space was quite small like 64mb only or something.

Anyhow. If you're my friend on facebook then you'll see several new photos!! =) Hmm was looking at some of my sec 2 photos from last time, and i realised i was much tanner last time. Well, i mean quite duh la i was a hockey player. Haha! Actually it was quite a nice colour because i'm naturally fair, so after all that sun i didn't really turn brown or black like how my brother and one of my sister does, i just uh turn... uh, darker? Like a nice shade of gold/bronze whatever. Okay hahaha. Those were the days =( And i had nice skin too!! Now i'm getting all fat and white LOL.

Oh and i'm super upset because i can't find a photo of my family where everyone looks super good. It's the photo i have in my wallet, but somehow i can't find it on my computer. =(((( I really hope i didn't forget to transfer it from my laptop to my computer before my laptop got reformatted. =(( Maybe. It's quite an old photo, from 2005.

Anyhows, today's been a rather boring day so far. I shall uh maybe go and take a short nap now. Yawnz. =))

Wahahaha. Mr Toh has requested for the SYF comments so that he can go through it next week with us. Not sure if i'm allowed to blog about it, but anyway i'll just post what 1 of the judges said. They've got a sense of humour!

1) stands for set piece, 2) for Shchedrivka 3) for pamugun.

1)why you sang semi-tine lower from the beginning?
your onomatopoeias are so effective, and i feel wide space from your performance
Wow, the last of this piece will be correct pitch!
2) Boy's voices are excellent. Your harmony is so symphonic. Like adult choir
3) Little bit so fast, i think. therefore each words are not clear. Anyway you can make nice drama successfully

Wahahaha! I couldn't read the chinese one (duh) so i skipped it but there was another judge that went '...... BUT! SEMITONE LOWER!' (really in caps). Hahaha! Okay everyone will get to see it on wednesday =)

Anyway, many of you may know, or not know, i don't know, that earlier in the first half of the year i was asked to sing with RCS, the unofficial alumni of RJ chorale (and the group we're going to carol under). We're going on an end of year trip back to Prague, where RV had our competition. It's the same competition, but different venue and whatever. So practices have been every saturday afternoon at one of the member's house. It's been really fun la, very different to get to sing in a small group, with only 12 of us, and me having to sing bass (yes out of the 3 tenors i'm the lowest) because all 3 tenors are so loud and we've lack of basses. It's definitely a very different experience between having Mr Toh conduct in front of the choir and having him sit right next to you where he can poke your face when your tone is wrong LOL or stare at you when you go out of tune.

Well anyhow, that also explains why i've been uh banned (haha) from going to Sentosa by Mr Toh tomorrow =( Ah well, really hope that everyone else is able to make it and all of you promise me you'll have fun okay? =) I think in our short JC life, it really is difficult to get a big group of people who all have different timetables and commitments to come together on one day to go on an outing. It's different from a class, where it's easy to just go out after lessons, even so, it's usually just for a short lunch before everyone breaks off to go do their own things. With so many exams and events popping up here and there, it's difficult to find the appropriate time to even hold such an outing in the first place. So, yes, we should all always treasure such things when they come by. Unfortunately i don't think i've been able to make it to like a single one? Wasn't at chalet because i was overseas, now tomorrow i can't go. Aiya but oh well, terrible timing? Perhaps hahaha but well maybe we'll have a chalet at the end of year? ANYONE WANTS TO PLAN ONE??? =)))))) You are most welcome to xD. How about a christmas chalet? That will be nice. We can have Gerald blast his solo for round the glory manger HAHAHA.

Anyway i'm really tired now. This week has been half terrible, half fulfilling. Hopefully my mind can clear soon, by tomorrow, and then i can start thinking normally again, and not have information overload. Haha! =) Goodnight world and have lots of fun tomorrow!

Wow. I've never felt that i've ever had an information overload until today came along. Okay. I'm having a headache now. But well, i do feel better after all the meetings because it cleared a lot of things up, and now we also kind of have a clearer picture of what to do next. So yes, happy things. But my head hurts and i think i need to sleep. -.-

Chorale today was fun. Yay Mr Toh didn't scold me, except for uh being loud -.- Nevermind i think i can solve THAT problem quite easily haha! And i realise i really REALLY like renaissance pieces they seem to appeal most to me =) Basically stuff which overlap nicely and yet still blend and have chords at such unexpected moments just never fail to make me go "oooo" when i sing. Wahaha.

Okay i'm really tired and i should go and sleep. My voice feels quite tired i must have uh abused it or something hmm. Okay everyone go sleep and rest your voices =)

suet says:
actually bennett is not really fat what

suet says:
why does he keep wanting to lose weight

suet says:
its quite scary

suet says:
okay okay come i summon my enthusiasm so you can quote me

suet says:
BENNETT TAN YOU EN YOU ARE NOT FAT!!!!

suet says:
STOP LOSING WEIGHT ITS SUPER UNHEALTHY

suet says:
yay okay moving on

Hello everyone! Today's been some mega-slack day. Oh wait, no i went to church ^.^ I almost died trying to get out of bed after a mere 6.5 hours of sleep. BUT i didn't fall asleep in church =) BUT i came back and immediately zzzz-ed on my bed for 1 hour plus before dad came and woke me up for lunch. Went to adam road hawker centre and got conned. Coz at first drove past then it seemed like the entire row of stalls were closed! Then decided to get off to check properly then realised it's coz that entire row we were looking at was like Malay food so since it's Hari Raya yesterday so they're all probably taking a break today =) Yep, so the other side of the hawker centre was still bustling with activity. Heehee. Ate duck rice. Came home, and have been slacking till now yay. Oh, discussed with Suet about exchange!

Okay have decided to be hardworking and am going to attempt to exercise. Someone punch me.

Hmm.. I was just thinking. Choral singing requires a lot of patience. Don't you think? Most of the time, we don't really sing many many fast songs. And so the patience comes when we have to stretch the notes, to pay attention to every detail. And of course, the patience encompasses the hours of practice just to perfect one song. Only to perhaps perform it once? And then what? If someone is always very eager to get along, then won't he/she start rushing when they sing? The song goes out of rhythm. When they rush through practices, how can the song turn out to be good?

I'm not sure if it only applies to choirs, (i didn't bother thinking whether it applied to other stuff), but as long as it applies to us, it's important to know about it.

And i think a large number of people are really just very concerned about singing their own part. But that's just it isn't it, we're not solo singers. We're a choir. I must admit it's really not easy to be able to juggle singing your own part and at the same time listening to other parts. But well, it really really depends you know? Depends on how you view it. I realise that recently, for example wednesday when we were thrown the new christus scores and just sight singing, a lot of times i was just fitting my notes into the chords of the choir. Of course tuning and stuff is still important, but sometimes it's also easier to fit your note into the chord. If everyone is able to hear chords, then we wouldn't go out of tune. But then, relying on chords alone cannot also because if the choir is out of tune, then you'll just lose your note. It's not easy, but it's important to really hear chords in a choir because without chords, then where's the harmony and blend? Unless of course it's clash chords then don't listen because then you'll get influenced to sing other people's notes then you'll lose your correct note haha!

It's also very important to look up and down the score to see who you're supposed to have harmony with, and sometimes whether you and another section are supposed to sing the same note. Because that's like obviously the best time to see if the 2 sections are in tune right? If they clash then obviously burst. Haha! Hmm. Maybe it's a good idea to just play notes and let people try to fit notes in to make up the chord. Hmmm.

Okay going back to patience. Oh i also realise that often in singing many people tend to slack at last moments? Not just realise la, Mr Toh has been telling us very often. But many times, we don't realise it's happening. But it really does affect the whole sound. It's in a way a reflection of how people want to rush on to the next note without even completing the note they're singing. Maybe it's not patience, but just that people don't know that they're neglecting the last part of the note. So. Something to take note of =)

Anyway super happy suddenly today was able to identify the difference between my speaking-singing voice and my tony-singing voice ^.^ Okay shall have no more christopher sound! Heeheehee. I realised that all along i though the ringing-in-the-front-of-my-face sound was the correct sound, and that the big blob of sound at the back of the head meant that the sound was stuck in the head (dark sound). But then i had a revelation and realised that it has to have BOTH the big blob of sound to create the nice big tone and the ringing feeling to create the uh, ringing sound. Cannot just have 1. Big blob alone ---> Dark sound. Ringing sound alone---> annoying nasal christopher-sound. So must combine then it'll sound better =) Yay. Revelation of the century!!

Bleh okay it's almost 1am and i've gotta wake up early to go church tmr. Yes, i've started going back to church after like many many years (really). Bye everyone! Goodnight and rest your voices, or if you're using them, make sure it's only for experimental purposes to make them better! Haha joking xD. Okay no seriously.

Hello! Wah today was sooo dreadful. At least school was. I was supremely tired because of the endless late nights ever since Sunday night. And well, i think it's having an effect on me. My eyes and uh like the eyebrows there were quite painful and i just zzzzz throughout econs lecture. LT5 tables are super not conducive for sleeping btw they just slide around wherever i lean my elbows. Ah well, anti-sleeping measures. But i guess if you're that tired, it doesn't matter. So before maths i CMI went to buy a slurpee because the sheer amount of sugar content is enough to wake me up no matter what. And well, it kind of worked. Stayed awake enough to kind of understand. Oh but the lecturer was really funny anyway she kept randomly shouting instead of using the mic and say random lame but (to me) rather funny jokes. I think my brain was so dead that any attempt at a joke would have appeared funny. Anyway. Chem was next and i stayed awake coz i was just like half talking to Jin Kai half listening and copying. Bleh. Hope my organic chem next year doesn't GGXX.

Oh i realised why it was so terrible also! My class doesn't have a single double lecture. So we stay in the LTs for a max of 1 period before moving to classrooms or break or something. Ya, so the fact that we have 1.5 hours lecture instead of 1 hour, AND 3 lectures together is enough to make me go dizzy. So when school finished at 12 i buay tahan rushed off with sister and aunty to J8 to eat... Ding Tai Feng!! =D Super nice and we also ate like uh yami yogurt after that so okay i was going to pop. Came home and zzzzzzzzz until 3+ then went to cut my hair (finally). I was supposed to cut it 1 week before promos so you can tell how overdue it is. I think i've said this a million times. Anyway. So it's nice and short and my sister went 'SO CUTE!' when she saw it -.- Wubber. Then 爆炸 i became a pig and went to island creamery and ate more ice cream. Wahaha. Ok like whatever.

I miss my parents!

Oh yar! Congratulations to the music comm! Everyone in chorale, let's make chorale a super pro place okay?? OKAYY?? And of course mould each other into good singers who gel together and enjoy the whole thing through our music and friendship. Looking ahead - to prepare for the new J1 intake next year and be ready to accept them and quickly teach them such that we can be ready for whatever endeavors we're going to undertake next year. Yes? =)


And of course, we are SO going to make things better. <3

WoW. Today's choir was very enjoyable. Hm i really like renaissance pieces i realise. Ever since O magnum, i think i've really come to appreciate this style a lot more, with all the different arches. It's really beautiful when each section has their own melody and arches and climaxes and all those. It may appear like the choir is falling apart, with each section going off to sing their own melody, but well in actual fact it's not. Because the notes always form chords and they always end up in unison at the end of the entire phrase. So it's like diversity yet everyone is together. Ah so sweet. But hm if you guys don't really like the christus song (i only don't like it because i get a shock everytime mr toh says it-.- ) then i guess we could suggest another one or try other songs. Opinions people??? =D.

Anyway my voice is back to normal =) No more no voice from saturday haha. But then hmm i think maybe uh now it's like rehealing or something because it feels very mucousy in my throat bleh. Oh well, must be sing too much in falsetto. If i'm not wrong when we sing in our falsetto, we're actually using some mucous membrane part of our vocal cords, compared to using the entire set of muscles for full voice. So maybe that's why if you have more mucous you can sing higher? WAHAHA i don't know.

I ended real early today, like 10.15. Hm then worked on moving the stuff from our old (now it's called old) store room to Raffles Room 8 because they want to convert that room to photocopying room. Whee. Thanks so much for everyone's help. =) Who ah? Ivan, Isaac, Kialiang, Bennett, Suet, Gen, Cat, Joseph, and the random dude from RP. We did it in 2 hours!! Anyway then ate lunch with bennett, quan, isaac, geet. Went with quan and geet to the MEP room and listened to them sing their duet for elijah rock. My ears almost burst wahahaha. Then yeps went for chorale which was fun. =) Keep kena from Mr Toh haha but okay nevermind my fault i THINK i was being lazy so never use techniques fully so caused sound to be a bit off. Anyhow. Yawnz. xD

Oh it's so funny. While having lunch, quan and geet started singing their prague songs, and they sang a version of ave maria, and the song is so beautiful! I have it in one of my chanticleer albums, though they did a TTBB version while RGS obviously did a SSAA version. But they're the same la just different octaves. But i was like zomg then now i'm listening to it non stop haha. It's really really very beautiful. Gentle and smooth (quotes ivan). It's quite long though, 7 minutes plus. Ahhh. I think i'm just going to ooze in beautiful choral music tonight. -chris is in bliss-

Oh crap. Throat hurts after eating ice cream -.- Silly me. K let me gulp down 10thousand gallons of water. Hmm today is a funky long day. Econs, maths and chem lecture. End at 12.05. I'm finally going to cut my hair =) Couldn't find any time to do it ever since 1 week before promos. So yeah that's how long it's overdue haha i think like i saved cutting my hair once already wahaha. Anyway it really is warmer when i've long hair. But then again, i feel less cold in aircon room. Oh wellz. Pros and cons.

Okay really tired now. I shall stop here and go find something constructive to do =) Goodnight world! And rest your voices =D

I shouldn't be awake at this hour. I should be sleeping. I have to go school by 830am tomorrow morning. I know i will just die if i don't sleep now and have to wake up barely 6 hours later. But i still don't feel like sleeping.

It's interesting how sometimes you know you have a bad habit, or like there's something bad about you, but yet it doesn't hit you hard until someone actually tells you you're like that. Hm like let's say I'm fat, but then the reality of it doesn't hit me until someone actually says in my face 'you are FAT okay.' Yar okay you get what i mean. It's a very interesting sensation and it causes you to uh go into deep thinking and hm maybe that's why i don't feel like sleeping. It's not a bad thing, sometimes it's good for people to tell you your bad points. You know how they always say that your true friends always point out your mistakes because they want you to improve? I guess i'm also glad that i have friends who're like that. =) So uh, in a way, thank God for them.

I had a really fun day today with my 2 sisters and dad. Went to fish farms in the afternoon after a yummy lunch haha. It's amazing to see all the different kinds of fish, like all the breeds. And of course, the huge giant arowanas on display. The most expensive was this big red one which cost $6888. I think no fun leh, the fun is in rearing the fish until it grows big right? Yeah so hopefully my dad's will grow big then from $48 become worth $10000 or something. Heehee.

Hm it's amazing also how much drama can unfold in one day. Miscommunication really results in a lot happening and as history has like shown, it can really result in serious consequences. Oh, made me think of Othello haha. Where the woman totally died coz the husband thought she cheated and then he killed himself after realizing she was faithful. GGXX. -.- Yeah oh well, everyone learns at the end of the day hopefully.

Sigh phew okay. I think i'm finally feeling more relieved now. Hm okay it's 1.30am and i gotta wake up at 7am. So that means? 5 and a half hours of sleep. HHYY. Okay hopefully i don't uh faint tomorrow. Haha Suet can totally save me =).

K my brain has ceased to think. I shall stop here and uh try to sleep now. Goodnight world. Sweet dreams =)

Hello! I totally lost my voice and couldn't sing at all today. Okay but nevermind hahaha i hope it'll heal and come back soon. xD.

Anyway, congrats to us for open house!! I think all of us really put in a lot of effort in both our singing and in stuff like the board. Yayy i'm really proud of everyone because 1. our board was totally damn hot okay 2. our singing was totally damn pwnz okay. We've definitely grown in our singing and gel together as a choir better. =) Yay ok nice bright future for us wahahaha. Also can see that we're more confident in our performing uhh abilities? And more daring and fun-loving too. =) That's good that's good. Must grow as performers too!

Oh burst. Okay i gotta go for dinner. Anyway i've had a long day and i'm seriously tired from lack of sleep from last night LOL. Heehee. See ya all and a big thanks to everyone! =)

Hmm i don't really want to face 'reality' so i'm doing lame things like cutting my nails, playing random music, going to say hi to my sister, blogging etc. Xianz.

Choir prac today was not bad. Considering we haven't sung for 5 weeks =D. Mr Toh kept saying we were good hm but i guess from our point of uh, hearing it's sometimes difficult to hear the overall sound so can't really tell. But i think i can describe our sound as tight. Hee. Means we blend la. =)

Think i'm gonna sleep early. Though i was a pig and woke up quite late still quite tired after choir. Hmm. Tomorrow gotta go school at 8am so oops gotta wake up at 7 haha. Okehs so i should sleep by 11 which is 1 hour's time. Okay i go try to do something constructive like write my PW script. (HAHA). Goodnight! Sing well tomorrow =)

I'm in this really floaty mood now. Must be coz i just watched cinderella story. I happily decided to let my bimbotic side shine through for 2 hours and watch that spastic show haha. It's one of the better fairytale/chick flick movies. Hmm well i'm not the only one gerald told me he watched 'just my luck' =P Heehee.

Anyways. Choir tomorrow, or later today. Whichever. It's been a long time, 5 weeks since our last practice. I sincerely hope everyone is able to remember everything that we've learnt in term 3. But shouldn't be too bad la, considering um, every section (except mine) had sectionals. Oh dear. Okay we're having ours before practice. Poor bennett had like half the teeth in his mouth extracted yesterday and he could hardly open his mouth let alone sing. So that's like 1/3 section gone. So yar tomorrow before practice then. I can't be there for a large part of the prac, gotta go and do a dry run of the dry run. Heehee no choice.

Sigh okay sucks to miss choir. Like after so long don't have then gotta miss it =( Hm i love il divo's I believe in you with Celine Dion. It's super nice haha. I wish i could reach even higher than i can, to like high C or something in male voice like real tenors can. If i'm not wrong, real tenors can reach to notes like B or C. I can only reach F comfortably haha but okay i guess it's already very fortunate. At least i've low falsetto to cover for the lack of high notes.

I'm quite tired now. Lucky tomorrow morning got nothing. I think? -checks- Ok heng don't have. Ok i think i shall go sleep. Oh throat feels funny because i drank tap water. Bleh. K shouldn't do that next time, shan't be lazy and make the trip downstairs to get distilled water.

Alright, goodnight world. Sing well later! =)

Hmm. I am tired. I need more sleep. I think i'll sleep more tonight. Do i have to go school early tomorrow?? Hm. Don't think so right? Okay.

Okay i'm tired. I don't want to blog.

Goodness. Last night i dreamt that I failed chemistry!! Like in classroom, then Mr Tan gave me back chem papers and i got 49!! Omg. Then it's like i'll wake up and calm myself down, then dream the same thing again! It happened 3 times. Wah lau. Promos are still haunting me =( See chem department is sadistic and they should all commit suicide.

Haiz. i am annoyed. One of my fish is sick and i prepared nice clean water last night so that i can change today and my stupid annoying sister go and take the water to change the water of her tank. Wah lau she is some stupid ass okay if my fish die she's gonna live with guilt forever.

=D Happy people. Ah well i'm leaving in about 15 minutes time so gotta go bathe and stuff yawnz. I feel dirty i didn't bathe since before chem paper yesterday LOLOLOL. xD

Wah xian chem paper is lau sai inducing please. But wubber who cares PROMOS ARE OVER!! Wheeeeeeee. I didn't go out though, went home and almost zzZZzzz on my sister's bed (after saying hi and secretly sniggering coz she had exam in afternoon) until my dad came and called me to go for lunch. So i had super yummy lunch at fish and co. then uhh went to see some apartment at newton before going centrepoint where my mum went shopping and i ate some more at haagan dazs. Oh i'm a pig but who cares promos are over okay. There's reason to celebrate.

The nap in the afternoon was SO juicy omgosh i haven't slept in afternoons for eons. I usually don't and can't but i simply tak boleh tahan then just -poink- and fell asleep in the bed. Dinner was crap somehow the fish my maid cooked for me was like eat salted meat or something so i left it alone and just ate grapes. Anyway i was super full from lunch and tea (which occurred within like 2 hours of each other).

WOOHOO PROMOS ARE OVER!! But now the mad rush for open house. Sigh and i realised i have ZERO free days next week. Annoying. Monday got PW thingie, tuesday got physics h3 (OH MY GOD), wed hmm.. chorale prac (will send out an email soon) thursday rehearsals for open house (will be in the email) and friday open house itself (also in there). Wahhhhhh. -Screams- Everyone seriously please go and memorize and rememorize ALL the songs before wednesday afternoon or not we'll all just plonk and die and forget and burst and screw up and NOW that's now what we want right?? =) Right.

I am going to be a pig and sleep some more now. Goodnight world! Happy people must smile =D

Oh Em Gee. Burst maths confirm minus 13 marks liao LOL. Coz i completely forgot how to do the DE question so that's like 6 marks gone -.- Then some other qn like qn 5 also dunno so -4. Then the qn14 calculate area i burst also so -3 so yar like -6-4-3 = -13.

Bleh. One more paper to go. Yay. Then maybe i can finally sleep properly. Although i was how tired and slept at 12am last night i could hardly sleep throughout the night lor =( It's really quite annoying how I know i need the sleep to be able to do exams properly, but yet my own mind refuses to give it because it's so busy worrying over the exams. -.- Annoying.

Sigh alright 1 more paper to go yay. Chemistry omg i got E for CTs i wonder what i'll get this time. Better go and study and hopefully pull my grades up man. Everyone go study. yay. We're happy people. o.O

"The student's hand is broken". What does this statement mean? [12]

OMG econs can die ah. My hand is seriously dying after writing non stop for so long. But wah lau i think i'm still going to fail please i shouldn't have bothered studying la. Study also burst. Okay. So now i'm skeptical. Should i study for physics???

I tell you, when i have kids i'm going to make all of them ambidextrous ah. Force them to learn to write with both hands. Then when they grow up do econs essay can write with both hands, then won't have so much pain in one hand. Now it's like how painful (and yet i'm still busy typing away) and i don't feel like practising physics or yar, using my brain. All my brain juice got squeezed dry already.

Bang sai. Haiyar okay i shall go and do something productive. Just printed out the physics 2006 CT paper and maybe i'll actually not waste paper and ink and go and attempt it. Da bian. Wish me luck. tata!!

Hahahaha i just remembered a joke i made a while ago. It's quite bad but okay here goes. May not be funny. Warn you first.

So benjamin and i were sitting in my car, and he was trying to sing something but CMI then so..

Chris: "Oi use the consonants to harness the air pressure like what Mr Toh says."

Ben tries to sing and succeeds

Chris: "See, it works. Always remember, consonants are your friends.. so you should???"

Ben thinks but doesn't come up with the answer.

Chris: "Make use of them la!"

Heeeeeee xD. Okay it was super funny when i said it we both burst out laughing like crazy in the car. Anyway, that was a JOKE. No it's bad to make use of friends, or anybody for that matter. =) Okay.

GP paper today was crappy i totally screwed up essay, i should have done the lemon lemonade qn la at least if i screw up then it'll be an amusing essay. Tch. k nevermind. Hopefully compre can salvage lor. =(

KK back to econs now. Wish me luck i haven't studied everything up to market failure. A for econs here i come!!!!!

Omg burst i keep having bleeding nose every morning like these few days during study break. I think being at home causes me to not move a lot so like i'm too lazy to get water to drink. Yikes! Cannot cannot. All the exams are in the morning it's gonna be like how weird and annoying if i get bleeding nose and bleed all over my paper. Wahaha then can say i vomit blood when i saw the GP questions =P

K so anyway i'm like really bursted for promos because my studying rate has been like damn slow like 0< dy/dy <1. Then my ionic product is less than my Ksp so whatever i try to study just doesn't go in because my brain is SATURATED.

So okay someone give me ammonium chloride maybe stuff will start to dissolve -.-

I've been eating ice cream non stop ever since wednesday like lunch will eat, dinner will eat, depressed will eat. Maybe on monday when u guys see me you'll go o.O because i put on a lot of weight? I don't know haven't actually weighed myself. Can you imagine next year A levels? It's like when i'm xian of studying the only thing that can bring happiness and pleasure is eating something nice and cold which makes you feel 'good' so yes ice cream is what i eat. Siiigh i am going to explode.

Anyway last Saturday went for a random blood test and urine test and dunno what rubbish stuff then like my heart rate is apparently only 48 beats/min. So then went to see the doctor right, coz it was the nurse who took the thing. Then first thing he said 'Wah! Your heart rate is really low you know. Very unusually low.' then i was like thinking 'oh no am i dying?'. Then he went on the say 'Only very very fit people like athletes have such low heart rates.' and my brain went WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. and my eyes went o.O.o.O.o.O. K then doctor went on to say 'do you exercise a lot?' and my brain went WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Then so i answered him 'no??????'. Yar so okay i was damn amused. I concluded afterwards that because i took the test at like 8am and i was like half asleep, i was probably on the way to falling asleep on the bed that they took the heart rate that's why my heart beat slowed down. Or maybe i'm just dying. Apparently normal people's heart rate range from 60-100.

Then went back to get the results on tuesday, and as usual my cholesterol level is supremely high, apparently even higher than last time. It's not totally my fault because it's some genetic thing, like my dad has it and all my siblings have it but mine's the worst. There's like good and bad cholesterol, and my bad one is 43% above normal. -gasps-. Yar. So then doctor says i need to go on medication. Omgodz. Maybe i AM dying. So i asked him what i can do like myself, other than eating medicine. Then he said 'i can't really think of anything.. oh! exercise lor!' and once again my brain went WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Okay so now that doctor has ordered me to exercise maybe it's time i move my butt and do something. =( Haiyar okay i should anyway. Kk post promos. For now, ICE CREAM GALORE!!!!

C'zhao says:
yo bro

C'zhao says:
art thou slacking off again?

C'zhao says:
back to the books u go!

C'zhao says:
cha!

C'zhao says:
oh hello

C'zhao says:
eh u copy cat

C'zhao says:
:D

C'zhao says:
teehee

C'zhao says:
there's 4 of us leh

C'zhao says:
!!

C'zhao says:
ehh ya lor

C'zhao says:
stupid.

C'zhao says:
muaha


-.- The lameness of my dearest sister who's so happy because she just bought 9 parrot fishes. Haha. Okay like randomness i'm not going to blog much since phantom people seem to be reading my blog and not acknowledging so i'm scared. -cough cough-

MSN messenger has unceremoniously forced me to 'upgrade' (against my will) to Windows Live messenger. And it's super annoying please. I downloaded and installed in, and when i signed in, all my groups were alllll over the place. Like people who didn't belong in Chorale group were there, my class was named as "OG" and my OG was like "Comm" or something and the comm groups was totally missing? And like the worst thing was i went to nicely swap them around and added this added that blah blah blah then i signed out, and signed back in and like they happily did major reshuffling for me again -.- Super annoying lor. Then OKAY i reshuffled again, and finally (so far) after resetting it my stuff didn't shift. Rawr. And the stupid display picture keeps reverting back to some chair. But hopefully it's okay now. See that was why i didn't want to change to windows live. K neverrrmind.

Anyway today wasn't as waste time as i thought it would be. Econs lecture was fairly useful, GP was supposed to be not useful and spend time and library doing summary/AQ while our teacher gave consultation to people who wanted. Then happen that while walking to library i met her on the way to give consultation to my classmate then she said that she had the 2nd slot (coz she can meet 2 people in 1 period) free so she asked me to meet her. Yay. Okay so seems like my thesis statements are giving me problems, and my arguments are like hit and go and i tend to focus on examples, so that's obviously wrong. Then chem lecture was er, liddat lor just go through some random stuff. And PE was survey so yay i left at like 11.10 and my school day ended =D.

Kk parents just got home from M'sia so going to eat lunch now. Tata!!

Yayy my fighting fish are happy. Well, at least 3 out of 4 of them are. The 3 of them are eating whatever i feed them really enthusiastically. I suspect the 2 new ones i bought must have been underfed or never fed such good food (relatively) that whatever i feed them must taste really nice and yummy. And the new pink male one is happy because he blew a bubble nest =D Yayy. But the older male one is probably not that happy coz he's still just lounging around and not really doing much. At least he's starting to eat more hee. Haiz, but the problematic female is actually i suspect simply too pampered. Because she eats all the yummy live worms but ignores the dried food. Well i can't possibly have live worms all the time, they all died this morning so if she doesn't eat, she's gonna die =(

Anyway. It's thursday, time obviously flies. And i think i am going to die for promos. I feel slightly inspired to study though because i successfully did my oscillations tutorial last night, and understood P&C today! Yay. Maybe there is hope after all =D. Anyway lately i've grown fond of eating assorted chocolates. I can't remember the brand but it's sold in 7 11 and i especially like the chocolates with almonds inside =D. Hee. But i like the raisins too they're cute. And nice. And yummy, and keeps me awake in class. Oops. Ok anyway..

Today is a happy day. Yesterday was a happy day too. I went for lunch with parents and sister at Ding Tai Feng and ate like a pig. We ordered like 16 xiao long baos then after we finished i was still.. not full =P So we ordered 6 more then they gave some free thingie with peanuts inside which was nice too and we also ordered the red bean dessert thingie so i almost exploded after that. But it was yummy. Haiz. I'm seriously turning into a pig, but it's okay. It's promos =) Dad says later tonight he'll bring me to island creamery WAHAHAHAHAA. Okay he'll bring all 3 of us there yay. Okay so i better go mug and earn the right to eat ice cream and put on weight (HA).

Bye bye and good luck everyone! Stay happy and cheerful xD

I suddenly realise permutations and combinations is so confusing after trying to do the tutorial. And my stupidity doesn't help.

[x!n.y|~*] says:
11ii?

C'zhao -round round round round (like a record!)- says:
number of ways to arrange, taking EEE as 1 unit is 6! right

[x!n.y|~*] says:
yup

C'zhao -round round round round (like a record!)- says:
then EEE can arrange 6 different ways is it

[x!n.y|~*] says:
noo.. its all the same!

xD. Yes okay so after school today i went to an aquarium. And i bought a pair of fighting fishes! They're so pretty, pink almost silver and errr a bit transparent at some parts. But they're still quite small i think, gotta let them grow bigger before attempting to let them mate or something. Oh my, if they do succeed then i'll have hundreds of fighting fishes. So cute!! I bought live worms too, and fed them to my red female fish AND SHE ATE. Omgosh. She gobbled them all up like a pig. So she's just been a brat and not eating dried food all these while -.- Whadda pig. Anyway yar it must taste really nice coz i fed it to all of them and they all ate like it was beef steak or something. =)

Okay. I am desperately trying to finish tutorial 9. So okay i'll end here. Tata! Oh btw, chem SPA was stressful. Not as bad as mock but heh. Still. =D Teachers staring at you while you try to.. do stuff.. Can't say what!!!!!

-a few minutes later-

C'zhao -round round round round (like a record!)- says:
SHAT

C'zhao -round round round round (like a record!)- says:
I GIVE UP

C'zhao -round round round round (like a record!)- says:
I ASK U TOMORROW

C'zhao -round round round round (like a record!)- says:
THEN U DRAW NICE NICE FOR ME OKAY?

C'zhao -round round round round (like a record!)- says:
OKAY?????

[x!n.y|~*] says:
orh..

I can't remember what i've done today. Like seriously. I think i hardly did anything. Getting very distracted by my fighting fishes. Recently my dad got a female fighting fish to mate with the male, but she looks weird. Vaguely bloated could be due to like a huge amount of eggs in her belly (which would be good hee) or she's sick. But bad thing is that the bulge seems to be on one side only? And she's not eating lehh.. I very scared. Don't want her to die, though she cost $1.50 but that's not the point. She's still a living being. Bleh. Okay nevermind see how it goes.

So it's the end of the holidays. Crap. Oh and i just realised yahoogroups is like quite noob and lag so i've decided to send email to yahoogroups straight from the egroups website instead of through my email, coz like i sent one last night and then today i got an email saying that my email was delayed (like wth) and that i wouldn't have to resend and just wait patiently. So i did, and nothing happened so i wubbered it and went to the egroups website to post. Wahaha. Anyway.

I suddenly feel like i'm very dead for promos. Maybe i'll get another DEAD. Then i'll be very sad. But haiz. Okay so the only way to solve the problem is to go and study. =( Easy to say hor. Haiyarrrrrz. K i shall stop complaining now. Oh! I went to church today after like a million years.

-10 years later-

I just belatedly realised i have chem SPA tomorrow. So i am desperately mugging for it now. So i am stopping here. Ciao!

Wah Lau bang sai i'm studying damn slowly la. Omgosh i think i'm going to die. Shit shit shit. How? And like only 1 day left of holidays then school start liao. Dammit. But yet i don't really feel very panicked or annoyed with myself either. I think it's like the psychological thinking that i've 2 weeks left to study. But then again that's not a lot either. So like WHY am i not worrying yet?

-faints-

Once again, i had something to blog about but i cannot remember it anymore. Oh dear. Maybe i'm turning into a goldfish and my memory only lasts for 3 seconds long. =( Sigh. I can't wait for promos to end actually. Then 3 whole months of vague freedom. Not counting PW which seems to actually be going not that bad for my group. Tonight need to tidy up the written report and throw in our interview stuff (which we just got a few days ago yay!) then can liao. Ah wellz. Sigh. I think maths is getting super xian for me. AP GP is fine but i completely don't understand summation and mathematical induction. Like completely totally don't understand. Someone save me. Help. -.-

Okay i shan't whine about studying and go and try to actually get something done. Bleh. Good luck world. See ya all soon.

Ouch i feel extremely stupid right now. I wanted to reset the router/modem, which are in my brother's room. So since it's like dark now and i couldn't be bothered to turn on the lights, i walked to his room and slammed right into the door because i didn't realise it was closed. Shat. My hand hurts now.

Anyway i've deduced that i'm mugging at such a slow pace, my brain might actually be degenerating instead of improving, and i suspect a snail will get bored with me. So. I shall make new friends with unicellular organisms then maybe i'll have someone on the same level as me to say hi to =)

I am totally in love with verbum supernum prodiens! Omgosh. I found this magical version online, sung by the world youth choir in 1999. It's seriously good. Hm don't know where the link is but i have the mp3 though. Ah okay i keep putting it on repeat. And like when i'm bored i go and look at the scores to analyse them -.- I think i've recently found this fetish for analyzing scores wahaha. It's really quite fun (to me) to see all the chord structures (play them on piano) and imagine how i would like the sound to be like, you know like stretch this note cresendo that note and the phrasing and everything. See this is why my studies are so being neglected. Oh i also think Cantate Domino is a really nice song too. But i can't find any nice versions of it online. Hmm. =(

K bad boy go and study. Sigh. I want more holidays. Only 2 more days left!! ='( -Sniff- Okay. I shall go and bug somebody before attempting to set me brain to think at least as fast as an amoeba. Byee! =D

Today was ultimate waste time day. I don't want to waste any more time talking about how i wasted time.

Anyway, i'm SO proud of myself that i managed to do ionic equilibria tutorial qn 7-10 all by myself and got them all correct!!!!!!! Omgosh! I'm not that air-headed after all. =D Yay -feels vaguely smarter-

Okay but yar today was a waste of time so tomorrow need to attempt to rush. Not like i have a schedule planned or anything, which is bad, coz i should, but i just can't get down to doing one. Bleh. Hope i don't die.

I had a lot of things to blog about, but i can't remember them anymore? So okay i'm just going to end here. Tmr got chem from 9-12. Omgosh. Goodnight people!! xD.

Hm was in toilet washing up and had random revelation!

There are 2 kinds of emotion-less way of thinking

1st way. To be void of emotions, and to be objective. So then you become really diplomatic and always want to make decisions based on the views of others and the majority. But sometimes, this seriously cannot work because to be diplomatic all the time to make every little decision means wasting a lot of time to settle something which is trivial. Inefficiency sets in.

2nd way. To ignore emotions and just do what you like. In this case more of ignoring other people's emotions i guess. To be frank, and to just say what you want. If i don't like you, i tell you i don't like you. Not good either, because then you'll hurt other people or say things which might cause dislike or unpleasantness.

So how? Take 2 extremes and average it lor. Haiz. Application of physics SPA in real life. Joy. Goodnight!

Waternight is a beautiful song. Mmmmm. I tried to study today. But i think i'm failing tremendously. Nevermind i still have half the afternoon to go -.- Yayyyy.....

I am bored and xian. Someone punch me.

Yo people. I am really tired. And i think i'm going to 爆炸 from overeating dinner. Wubber.

I have decided, that tonight shall be the last night i officially slack. Tomorrow morning, i am going to uproot my entire being, and my notes, and stationery NOT my computer to the library, oh yes plus my ipod as well, and start to MUG. Like i said, i'm in a i-feel-stupid phase so okay i need to get smarter right? I mean got problem, solve it!

xD

Hopefully.

I think hybrid cars are really cool.

Okay i think i shall aim to sleep early tonight. So that tomorrow will be longer, and i can be more productive. Yay. Oh super funny. I was wondering why i had like surplus money this week, then just now then remembered that i had to pay money for the ticket to Singer's Vocal emsemble concert. So okay paid my friend, then i was left with like $10. Then i was like 'OH so that's why i'm so rich this week.....' Okay NOBODY comment on that. Anyway. Then went with aunty to buy dinner from newton, then coz like super waste money if we put coupon and buy food da bao then come home right? So i went down to buy. Then buy buy buy order order order then need to pay right. Then i opened my wallet then i was like o.O omgosh i only have $10. Then calculate calculate calculate what's 3+3+3????? Then omogsh $9! Just nice. Okay so pay pay pay then i ended up with $1. So okay it's good. I'm not supposed to go out the entire of next week because i'm supposed to sink into depression and study right? So okay i think i can survive on $1. Let's see if i somehow manage to spend it =)

I realised the chord with a do and a so and the a mi an octave higher is like super nice. If you have the chance, go grab 2 guys to do the low notes then an alto to do the mi. Then listen hard and you'll be able to hear a high do and a high so. Ahhhhhh..... I should go and find out more about how a) our vocal cords REALLY work b) how sound waves interact with each other to form chords and such and overtone. Oh funky. I have a new aim in life =D

I am going to not bore you guys anymore and bum off to find something to do. Sigh house gets emptier and emptier. Brother has moved out. Elder sister is forever out with her boyfriend. Even if she's not, she's holed up in her room. Other sister is coming home real late every night ever since she started school which is such an oxymoron. But nevermind. Ah wellz. Home alone. Oh wait, got my aunty. Hee. Yawnz k can't wait for dadddddyyyy and mummmmyyy to come home. Yayyyy. Bye guys! Happy holidays. (HA FAT HOPE)

Hm was looking through RV pictures coz i wanted to find something and found hilarious pictures instead which i never knew existed. Okay actually just one. I couldn't stop laughing. xD

So here's Julian, who obviously got ambushed by Lionel who's the king bitch in RV (he crowned me the empress dowager bitch like ??? no WONDER he's a bitch). Anyway, Lionel you're SO joining chorale next year then we can carry on our bitching omgosh. xD. That day or was it just yesterday i suddenly remembered the super fun thumb game we played pre-concert and during the trip. Omgosh so hilarious especially louis! Hahaha. Our random male chamber emsemble was funky okay..

Anyway, i found nice romantic pictures too =P

Aw such a sweet couple =D.

Kk today i practically wasted my afternoon away. =.= Oh teacher's day celebrations were quite good i thought! Actually, i felt it was even better than National Day sadly. The programme itself was probably better. Sometimes, the outdoor thing is funky but it just kills the programme because there's so many things to distract people from the tiny stage. Yes so anyway. I was supposed to study. But i didn't. Ended up memorizing singers scores and playing the piano wahaha and watching a lot of random you tube stuff. Oh there's like nice CJ videos of their trip to Slovakia. Go search, lonesome road is niiice. And the other song about a chair has nice smooth part in the middle i got shock and hairstanding from a VIDEO.

Wahaha. Okay i'm going to carry on wasting my life away -.- and looking forward to tomorrow. Yay!

I NEED TO GET SMARTER.

Omgosh i'm at a i-feel-incredibly-stupid phase where i wonder why my brain is even able to tell my cells to respire. Maybe one day all my mitochondria will just cease to work and my lysosomes might happily decide to commit autolysis too. The valves in my veins might just refuse to open then blood cannot flow. Sigh that would be a terrible day.

-我正在石头-

爆炸. Kaboom.

Yay it's like world peace now that i've handed up EoM. No wonder i feel less stressed now WAHAHAAHA. Hmmmm i miss my doggies. I shall go and look for them now. Tata!

Famous last words:

Mr Toh: Which part of the note do you cresendo?
Ans: The dotted part
Mr Toh: And where is the dot?
Ans: (points to score) Next to the note

Mr Toh: Why do you all call that young lady in the photocopying shop 'aunty'? The one that looks like Suet.
Ans: Because she looks like Suet.

Mr Toh (in an exasperated tone): So what kind of music do you listen to????
Bennett: ella ella ae ae under my umbrella ella ella

Chris: Ew what's that smell??
Geetha: It's Minsi.


Do re mi so.

Choir today was mildly hilarious, really. But it was fun, though quite sad because we won't be singing together for more than a month from now. So everyone! Please preserve your voices and don't lose them after promos! I know you may scream in frustration at studying and everything, but yes, do not stress it until kena sore throat. Haha!

Hai after this gotta do EoM. But i'm vaguely happy that it's due tomorrow, so that after i hand it up, i don't have to worry about it anymore!! Yay! But that also means that now, while i have the chance to make it better, i have to make full use of it. And since I am a normal student and am not in particular favour of PW so i am hence very annoyed that i have to do it. But yes, for the sake of my grades i shall =)

Then my living shall not be... in vaain... IIIInnn VAAAAAAA-CRACKS-

Hello! Omgosh okay the range of my natural frequency does not include the frequency of summation of series & Mathematical induction. Hence, i do not resonate and we do not click together. Okay whatever physics students go decipher that. I cannot get past question 3 on tutorial 8 of maths and that's like tragedy of the century. Honestly. I don't understand why i don't understand anything in that chapter. It COULD be because i was sleeping in almost all of the lectures during that chapter, but NOH i don't think it's that bad.

爆炸.

So here i am blogging instead of doing tutorial. I have seriously no mood to do anything like work related. I realise i think i'm starting to like chemistry! I've been understanding the topics in term 3, i.e kinetics and onwards. Physics too. I conclude i simply have to listen and pay attention and study then i'll be smart. HA. (i think i'm like 10 years late in realising that).

Omg omg omg. I am super bored. Okay not bored. I know i should be studying? But i don't feel like. Xianzation is settling in. Someone kick me. Oh wubber i'm going to entertain myself. Bye people. xD

-Edit- On 2nd thoughts, I'M GOING TO BUG GERALD KOH GAO HAN. MUAHAHAHA.

It's funny how sometimes you emo about something, and then the next thing you know, or maybe even the next day, someone comes and talks to you and unintentionally tells you things and unintentionally affirms you that you're not the thing you think you've been, or that you're not as bad as you think you are and are in fact doing the opposite, doing a good job. Anyway.

Insipid:

1.	without distinctive, interesting, or stimulating qualities; vapid: an insipid personality.

2.	without sufficient taste to be pleasing, as food or drink; bland: a rather insipid soup.

Wahaha no wonder whenever Mr Toh says our choir is insipid he always comes up with the soup analogy, saying that we're like a bland porridge and we need to add in all the meat, the spices, chilli, onions then it'll taste nice.

I used to think that musicality is something that is perhaps in born. You have it, you have it, you don't, 爆炸. But don't think that's really true actually. How can we really be born with it? Surely it must come from somewhere. Observation, mimicking how someone does something, how someone interprets something. To have someone paint a nice big picture and then hopefully you go 'ohh i think i understand' and then truly understand and be able to reproduce it again and again. Am i talking sense here? It's like the term we learnt in bio sec 4, conditioned reflex action. I guess our brain works in a few ways, that like one is if you drill and drill and drill then finally it gets in, like primary school chinese 习字. Or like by focusing and really absorbing and taking in things and finding ways, thinking of situations and applying them whenever they come along, and not go oops after the chance is over. One way is boring and inefficient, the other is fast and has like many more positive externalities. It's up to us to choose.

If we stretch ourselves, and imagine things in our head, and really focus and pay attention, then maybe we might really be able to realise and find what we are seeking. If we don't bother, we won't find it.

Okay i don't think i'm really talking sense here. Haha! Anyway had a really long day today. But it was really fun, and fruitful though. Quite happy. Haiya i think i shall try to study a bit after this. Or not left tomorrow as the last day of weekend, then school again. Sigh. Looking forward to hols where don't have to go school, but yet it means must mug like damn hard for promos. Xian. Okay la must do well, already burst CTs =( Gogogo everyone! =) Kk i shall stop here for now. Hm think my face is vaguely sun burnt after this morning's tennis haha. Oops. K tata people!

I am emoing. Sigh. Don't think it's appropriate to talk about what i'm feeling now on this blog. But anyway CHA! i finish maths assignment 7. If that's any comfort. I should be mugger. Tomorrow's going to be a long day. I have a mild sore throat. Soleram is nice emo song. Oops they're sharp. My brain has stopped thinking. Hm my back muscle hurts. Ram.. Ram.. Ram.. Yay benjamin picked up his phone. - 20 mins later- Yay benjamin's still talking to me. Oh. Phone spoil. Redial. Okay ben has to sleep. Bye ben. Okay. Feeling vaguely better now after talking. Still a bit xian. Tired. Should sleep gotta wake up quite early. Drinks water. Methinks me should sleep soon. Plays soleram on itunes again. Realizes to my horror that i haven't memorized scores for singers yet. Crap. Nevermind tomorrow morning. Oh burst supposed to meet bennett to play tennis and do the Green notice board. It's 12.06am. I need to wake up at 8.30am. Okay must set alarm. Ram... Bad to think about things that have already happened and cannot be changed. Can only change the future and improve it. Ram... Soleram... Ram... Ram.. Computer goes pop. I seriously should stop this and go and sleep. My throat feels wonky. Better heal by tomorrow. Need to sing. Saaaayaaaang.. I'm frowning. That's not good. Ram... Chordy songs are nice. I seriously should go and sleep. Oh must set alarm. Okay i go set now. Brb. Back. Hope my clock doesn't die on me or not my sister will kill me. Not good to feel down and emo everyday. Crap i need to get happier. I think i'm happy during the day. It's only when i'm alone with my own thoughts that all the negative things tend to set in. Ram.. Soleram... Oops out of tune. Sigh. I should stop. Okay i will stop and just press 'publish post' and go and sleep. Sleep is good. Takes away worries. Tomorrow will hopefully be a better day. I should sleep early, prevent myself from going into emo mode. Not good. Not good. Ram... Goodnight not-so-round world. Rrrrammm-mmmm.......

Oh Em Gee. Lightning very scaree. Thunder also. It's raining cats and dogs and pigs and cows now. And today for some warped reason turned out to be a terrible day for me. I THINK, i'm starting to get stressed. I'm one of those people who do not know when i get stressed. I can only infer from the signs around me. Like, the now nightly weird dreams i have, and this constant annoyance and as if there's something clouding around me. Hmm. About promos? Think so. But nehhmind, i've decided that today shall be the emo day then I shall try to consciously start studying for promos.

Anyway, anyone who has a piano, 10 fingers, can read music and has a 'Soleram' score should SERIOUSLY go and play it on the piano. Because it's like ultimate emo song of the century (is that why i always feel emo??) and ya either you play finish and feel emo, or you feel emo and play it and feel even more emo. But that's besides the point. The chord structures and everything are all super duper nice and hair-standing. That was when i used the saxaphone function on my clavinova though. Don't think normal piano gives that effect but wubber it's still very very nice. And at the same time, it also forces the person playing it to look at chord structure then can analyze and evaluate (and get full marks for EoM) the chord structures, then when singing it in real life, you can look out for who you're supposed to blend with at which chord, then can consciously hear out for in-tuneness.

Wubber.

I feel like crashing my parents' room tonight. Hmmmmmmmm shall i? -evil smile- Ok i hereby conclude that i am brain dead for the day. I have absolutely no thoughts whatsoever, except that i know i have no thoughts. Which is a completel oxymoron paradox parallax error etc, but okay i am going round in circles. Whee. Circular motion. Omega = 2 pies/period. Is that right? Okay if wrong someone correct me. Oh i know maybe i should eat ice cream to destress. Oh no then get fat. 爆炸.

The world isn't round. Why? Because there's like mountains and landforms and buildings and all sorts of things jutting out from the ground. So like DUH it's not round -.-

Okay Goodnight people!

Julian

JOOOOOOOLIAAAAN! =) Although i don't think you read my blog, but someone's going to tell you that your picture is here anyway. So HELLO. And i would like to say you've been a really great friend since i got to know you, probably more so after choral feste last year? All the times we talk rubbish and kill my driver's ears by singing in the car whenever we're coming home from school. And remember how you came over almost every other day last year during trip preparation? =D Thanks for being my nice funny corny SMART fwend who's been a pillar of support ever since i got to know you. =))))))

I had weird dreams last night again, this time i remembered them! Anyway it was about the plants I'm currently growing. I dreamt that they grew really big, like there was this huge bean sprout which was like really fat and juicy then somehow my sister came along, saw it, plucked it off and put it in her mouth and ate it before saying 'ooo Juicy!'. Okay. Then next to it was my pitcher plant. Then there was like this random fly flying around and then it landed on one of the pitchers, then suddenly this green frog jumped out from the pitcher and tried to ate the fly. But then the fly was too big for the frog (it was a baby frog) but the fly stupidly flew into the pitcher and i guess it died eventually. Wahaha. ok end of dream

Yay i kind of finish my part for WR draft 2 last night so i've got to do EoM today and study for econs test later. Bleh. Confirm 爆炸 one lor but nevermind. Aiya my silly parents are still snoozing away. Hello!! Wake up it's 11.30am and it's almost time for luunnnch!!!!! I am hungry, but i drank home-made water melon juice just now which is super nice. Haha! Watermelon juice is really nice, go try. Like ownself squeeze (using a juicer machine la duh) with pulp and everything. Okay. I shall go downstairs and bug my parents after this =)))

Sigh i forsee this upcoming week to be a really busy week. But wubber I shall try to be a good student, do finish my homework, sleep early, study for tests (ew econs) and of course put in effort for chorale! =) Yayy okay i've nothing much to talk about now so i think i shall go wake my parents up and demand for food MUAHAHAHA. xD Byee!

Ahh! Guess who? None other than my favourite BENNETT!! Whee! Okay i am not obsessively in love with bennett okay (like ew) but yes okay he's a really really great friend who deserves to have his pictures posted all over my blog to show my appreciation for him being my friend and tolerating all my nonsense. And remember! Whatever rubbish i do to you or however erm, horrible i treat you, deep down, it's all for your own good and i do it as a friend and because i love you as a friend and person. Yay! Goodnight everyone. Have a nice day =D

Oh my gosh i am super happy. Wed night while i was vaguely emoing and then i started mugging for physics test right, then i got so super xian of mugging that i went to go randomly started singing la. Then was like trying out falsetto-ness and just blast randomly here and there and then all of a sudden, i found the super high whistling range!! Omgosh! Anyway then yar so i went around squeaking out the high A B Cs which i could never reach before wed night!! Omgosh! Anyway yes then super happy yesterday coz i still could do it, then super happy today coz i STLIL can do it!! Wahaha. And like just a few minutes ago i was being bored and blasting away and trying to expand range then suddenly i could totally blast the high notes! Omgosh! Another happy moment! Okay i shall totally train my falsetto until it's super pro then super nice muahaha then can have like 3+ octave range. Yayyyy!! I believe that our vocal range can be trained, so all we have to do is keep trying and oh, keep trying to close vocal chords coz then they won't remain open and only air comes out. Coz air comes out = no sound. So with falsetto, it's like such small vibrations that just a bit too much air causes the vocal chords to not be able to sustain the vibrations. So it's very very very berry important to try and squish the cords close and open just a Teeeny weeeny bit to let that so little air come out and squeak the note! And then just experiment and try here try there and then tada it will work.

It's such things that we have to experience and really try and try for ourselves before we can tada! get it that kind of thing. It's difficult for someone to come and coach us, yes, can tell us the theory behind, but many times in the real world, a theory which is more subjective kind tends to be more of a guideline, where we know kinda what we're supposed to do, but we really have to try it out for ourselves to really know what it feels like, what ELSE we're supposed to do, and perhaps detour around, try other things before it will work. Which is why theories are just that, theories. Yay.

Okay i am happy i had nice brownies BOTH today AND yesterday with ice cream shit i'm going to grow damn fat. Oh had super nice talk with daddy yesterday too over haagan dazs (heh) about life, family, growing up, school, army, blah blah blah but i actually love such talks because i learn a lot. I think my dad's really smart and logical and rational and er, yay. I love daddy and he's a great dad! Can't find anyone else to replace him =) Oh and he likes to buy me ice cream and get me fat okay but heeee.

Earlier went for tea with waldy (hee i love u waldy i don't hate you anymore) and coincidentally met benjamin (hmph pig i'm sure dao my smses to go eat lunch with unglam people) so he turned back and walked with us to J8 and we ate tea at cartel with nice 30% discount and funkay gerald used his debit card for the first time! Omgosh i want one. Bleh but only 17 then can get and i'm born in November it's like August, September, October, November, 4 months!! Gasps. Okay. Nevermind slowly wait la okay i just think it's super cool to sign for something. =) Though waldy was like lame and didn't know how to sign so he go use pin number hahahaha. K had super nice inspirational talk and everything and i think gerald got kinda scared off by the way me and ben talk and the aherm, content of our conversations. =) Nehhmind waldy u just gotta get used to it muahaha!!!!!

Ok 爆炸 i gotta go get ready for dinner liao, going out tonight. Yawnz. I'm really tired but i'm glad it's the weekend and i can sleep in tomorrow. Yay. Tata everyone and heee ain't i high?

After choir, i got into the car and on the way home, i don't know why but i had this huge feeling of xianness, and maybe a mixed of disappointment. Not from choir, no, but maybe a bit from myself?

I sang terribly at choir today. Techniques all twisted here and there and the sound and tone was just wrong, don't know why. Maybe i was really tired. Possibly. I slept quite late last night and had PE earlier this morning.

I got home and felt like being all alone for some warped reason, so i went to my room and didn't turn on my lights. Locked the door, and took off everything. It was actually really nice, lying on my bed in darkness and for a fleeting moment, everything lifted, the thoughts, the worries, the responsibilities. The occasional breeze from the ceiling fan cooling my head. But i couldn't possibly just lie there all day and not doing anything, hello, i have a physics test tomorrow to study for. Doesn't mean that i couldn't try to prolong the silence, the loneliness and the detachment from the rest of the world. Hence, that led me to my first ever bathing in darkness. It's really nice feeling, both hearing and feeling the warm water splash around. The only thing i had trouble with was actually squeezing the shampoo because i didn't know how much i had already squeezed out. So just went by feel and instinct. It's interesting, how in the darkness, where I can't see anything, other senses tend to be really much more sharp. I could even kinda smell the chlorine from the hot water (and errr i decided it was time to get out).

Tragically that 20 minutes of escape is just what it is, an escape, but not an escape which will solve problems. So obviously i managed to pull myself out and face the world by opening my room door again, allowing the lights from the landing outside to flood in, momentarily blinding me. I went to find my dog, whom i realised i have neglected for so long. Aw but dogs are the best because they forgive, and she was delighted to see me, not put off. I love you kyuu! Anyway, dinner wasn't ready after patting my dog for 15 minutes so i decided to come up and blog.

It's nice to be alone at home for a while, one of the very few times i have to eat dinner myself. But soon, my parents will come back from overseas, my sister with them. And then reality will wash back in as i take out physics notes to mug.

I need time to adapt to things, and hopefully, i will.

Oh bao zha i just realised that i typed 'pratice' instead of 'practice' in my email to chorale oops now like 200 people are going to see that i can't spell. Oops. xD

I am damn hungry now okay and that stoopid Gerald Koh Gao Han totally bangsehed me for his bio lecturer so i totally didn't get to eat super yummy brownie from coffee bean just now. He totally owes me a treat now.

Despite sleeping at 10.40 pm last night i'm still shuper tired because today has been like THE longest day ever with 5 periods in a row, a miserable lunch, physics prac followed by mind-blowing H3 physics which was some er, quite interesting documentary of various scientists and how each of them contributed one way or another to E=mc^2 and how it was used for atomic bomb and stuff like that. All mind boggling stuff la. Nehhmind.

Okay don't think i'm going to talk much today coz i'm vehh tired so am going to bathe now and gobble down dinner because i am super hungry now all coz of GERALD KOH GAO HAN WHO SHOULD GO AND EAT HIMSELF. =D

Rawr oh my god i think some annoying bug bit me multiple times coz both my arms are like super itchy all over omgosh. Kk i'm going to leave the room now and then come back after dinner. Tata!

-10 years later-

Okay i've eaten dinner and have bathed so i'm nice and clean. -20 seconds later- okay that was weird. I just went down to take water and before it seems like 3 emails came into my inbox in that time. Okay bao zha.

I conclude today is one of the best mondays i can ever have. Econs tutorial first period was just like going through some essay so just took notes and listened pleasantly. Usually first periods pass by quickly and nicely. =) physics lecture ended like 40 minutes early (no seriously) so since i had the half period break after physics pre-1.5-hour-long-GP, i practically had 1 whole full period of break. Bleh the bad thing was that 1 hour of stoning and watching people eat is actually quite hard to do so BURST i went to buy wedges and bubble milk tea which is like THE most unhealthy things i can eat and drink at 1 seating. But nevermind. GP was like super fun also coz was watching a movie. Erm i can't remember the name of the movie but the movie isn't in english. Look at subtitles. But nevertheless it was niiiice and looking forward to it on wed. Then after GP was like break again (like the usual 1 hour long one) so ate lunch. Then chem lecture was like as usual boring and i tried to keep myself awake. In a way i'm glad i sat next to ahlu who never stops talking (it's DAMN amazing can) so i couldn't exactly fall asleep because of the constant buzzing and the occasionally occasional bursts of laughter that came from him and jaya. But at least i'm quite happy coz i understood like most of what the lecturer said. =) Thenn it was Chem lab which was aiya as usual quite crappy but fun also la like see bubbles bloop around and oh it's really fun to try and prevent any air bubbles from entering the measuring cylinder when flipping it over to submerge into the basin of water. I tell you it's an art okay and many people cannot do it. =P Okay but i got 'scolding' from chem teacher because i tried to do it then burst then he told me that i shouldn't waste time trying to do that then while he was talking i totally wasn't listening then just emptied the measuring cylinder to get read to totally try again then he was like '!!! What're you doing?!? Didn't you hear what i just said?' Then all i could say was 'er. Oops.' Then he rolled his eyes and walked away wahahahahaha.

Finally went on the first class CIP this afternoon (last friday's briefing totally not counted laa) then WOAH. Primary 5 kids can be SO annoying omgosh. I think it's the defy-your-elders phase that they're going through. Not really all la, it's just like 1 in particular. Okay but everyone else is relatively less rowdy and they look nice and pattable. Okay, nice and friendly =). Oh there's this guy that totally reminds me of bennett. He kept screaming and screaming like a girl and he kept singing quite a bit. I was commenting that he's gonna have super loud voice man next time and if he does become like a singer or something, he totally can do soprano. But he's like cute and inquisitive too and kept banging on the window from outside while we were inside the room shouting "Who are these people?" and for some reason the 4 of us there couldn't stop laughing. Then the big primary 5 kid will come and jump on him and he'll scream and run away. -pat pat-

I was super happy this morning to wake up finding i had a dreamless night. Yay. But i had like interesting thoughts before i fell asleep though. It occurred to me that in a sports CCA, people who join it in sec 1 have to work from scratch, just like how people who first join choir will have to work from scratch techniques and stuff. Yes? Okay then so the sports people learn learn, train train, and gain lots of experience from the multitude of games they have to play even within 1 season. It's like real life experience out there challenging yourself. And once you have attained a certain standard, you will never have to drop to the bottom and restart learning anything again and all you have to do is keep playing and getting better with experience. Their learning curve is like some log graph so the front part is fast learning of techniques and skills then as you grow older, you increase very slightly slightly, slightly, but always forever getting close to the asymptope, of perfection and ultimate proness. Performing arts, or maybe a choir in particular, has a very different pattern of learning. We learn techniques, okay, then we learn songs. So we learn learn learn, perfect the song, then all we get is probably 1 or 2 chances of performing that song then bao zha drop to square 1 and relearn a new song for another competition or event. So it's more like a sin curve? Start from zero, learn and perform at the peak, or sometimes not even at the peak then burst drop back down and relearn again. Okay a modulus sin curve coz like it's weird to think of us going negative. Yar. Then + the experience and exposure is very very important to us too, and yet it's difficult to get any chances of that. It's not as if we have like rounds and rounds of singing before we decide a final winner. Think that was the previous SYF before GWH where there was 1st 2nd 3rd placing, but still, it's like max of singing twice per competition or something.

So yes it's a completely different context la. And it's definitely not very fair to compare absolutely. But oh well, it was just a thought that came to my mind just before falling asleep last night. =)

OKAYZ i shall go bum off now and find something constructive to do. Maybe i'll finally get started on annoying EoM. Rawr. LOL written report draft 1 my group got LOW LOW AE. Omgosh. AE is how bad already summore can get double low. -.- K we totally need to go and refine our entire report. Tata! =)

Oh and i know there ARE people reading my blog kay coz the counter goes up quite a bit. So must say hi okay don't be secret readers. =D

BENNETT I LOVE YOU!! Hope your 20 mins a day, 7 days a week cycling regime pays off and you lose weight!! WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. =)))

Today is quite a happy day for me. Kind of la. Although i didn't really get much done like in terms of work, but then i still feel rather accomplished. Oh yay my computer works again! In case u guys didn't know, it couldn't turn on like 3 days ago and 2 days ago. Then earlier than that, the clock kept resetting. So i suspected that the battery on the motherboard was flat so the computer couldn't boot up. Then yesterday it miraculously must have squeezed the last ounce of electricity from the poor battery and turned on. Today it died again la -.- Then just now decided to open the computer, and took out the battery, and then ironically, the control for the my speakers uses the same battery and the control spoilt like a million years ago so i just took the battery out, replaced, and taDA my computer works! Oh i'm so brilliant =) Okay i think that's the main reason why i'm happy today la.

I've successfully finished like maths and chem tutorial 7. I'm daoing physics -.- Tomorrow shall TRY to do PW. And i think my mum is going to come into my room soon and demand that i make some spastic timetable for promos. Haaaaiz. It's so spastic how i got A for maths, and it's like 56 percentile, but i got like D for econs and it's 70 percentile?! My highest is WAHAHAHAHAHA GP at 73. I totally burst out laughing when i saw it but okay whatever. I shall aim to do well for all my subjects during promos!

I've been having strange dreams the past 2 nights, 1 of which shocked me causing me to wake up. But i can't really remember the contents of the dreams. But i know they were all really really abstract, like the first one got car in carpark like huh? Then last night totally couldn't remember. I seldom dream, and dreaming means i'm not normal. Stressed? No leh. I don't know.. maybe it's subconscious stress. Always happen. Like how i always have diarrhoea and no appetite the day before exams even though i don't THINK i feel stressed. K i'm like talking random shat.

I think my sister is annoying. She totally turned 18 last december and then she tuo tuo tuo her driving until now then totally can't drive yet. Super annoying then like coz she's how random and free now she likes to go out at weird times then clash with me going out for IMPORTANT, FIXED, AND CANNOT BE LATE stufff then totally burst. Ok. If i could learn how to drive, i would like hope to pass ASAP and spam driving lessons man. Omgosh i can't wait hahaha. Ok anyway it takes 50 mins to get home by public transport from upper thomson. There are like a thousand and 1 bus stops along the whole stretch of upper thomson road i can get lost and wonder whether i've totally overshot already. Okay and the walk home from the busstop is like 12 mins. I was totally on the phone with Benjamin the whole time and so yar after i put down it said 11:?? mins for the phone call time so okay + like the time i took to scroll and find his name on the handphone so it's 12mins. No wonder all the farewell people reached my house panting and sweating coz it was like mid afternoon when they came. Oops.

I went for a swim today, and though the water isn't exactly obviously dirty, but i can still errrr sense the like random dead skin cells from the people who got pushed into the pool on wednesday/volunteerily jumped in because they were hot and sweaty (even more reason to slap them). + i read on aherm random people's blogs that they were biologically excused from being pushed in but went in anyway aherm aherm so okay my pool is totally infested with weird things now. Wahaha! Anyone still wanna swim? I think the annual changing of pool water should be coming soon. I think usually change like in december or something. Water bills must be super high that month.

AHHH i am just crapping away my time on my blog this is terrible this is bad this is detrimental this is negative this is horrible this is awful this is dreadful this is appalling this is shocking this is ghastly this is horrific this is dire this is unpleasant this is unhealthy this is atrocious this is repulsive.

I love thesaurus function in MS word. OMG i am lame someone shoot me.

I shall take pity on you all and stop talking now. Goodnight! And blah blah blah. =)

Sigh i should totally stop listening to Soleram and emoing about J2s. Sigh i'll really really miss them. =( J2S, WE LOVE YOU LOTS. PLEASE COME BACK AND VISIT US OFTEN OKAY. OR NOT I'LL PERSONALLY HUNT YOU DOWN AND WHINE TO YOU EVERYTIME I GET THE CHANCE TO!!!

Okay back to chemical equilibria. -yawnz-

Yo! Whee farewell for J2s was a blast yesterday! Haha! Although nobody went down to the basement in the end, so all the lights decor was wasted. But nevermind, i'm planning to leave them there for future use because they look really really nice.

Anyhow, i hope the J2s really enjoyed themselves. It's quite funny how we decided to impromptu so many things near the end of the programme, but yet it seems like they turned out even better than the original plan. Shh i'm not going to tell you what was different from the original programme. =). Ahhhh yay i think it was really really worth it planning for this farewell and rushing here and there and coordinating with all the different sub comms. It was really an event that couldn't have been done if all the J1s didn't put in the effort they did for all the preparations leading up to yesterday. So i'm really happy!

My feet are screaming now though. Because of all the preparation and putting up for decorations since morning. All the running here and there when everyone had just turned up and screaming my name for this and that and asking where to put this and that haha. Thankfully after about an hour or so everything settled and people stopped getting lost (heh) so could focus on putting up the decor. But was practically standing the entire day lor so even today my feet still hurt a great deal. But nevermind. A little bit of pain won't kill me, i'll just wait for it to go away by tomorrow. Yay.

Ahh what was super most touching was when we started singing all the songs in the living room. Like pamugun magnum and new day, ooo and when the lights turned off and we all stood in a big circle to sing and the blowing out of candles was just LOL. Is that why like less than half the cake was eaten? Hahaha!! Like all the germs and bacteria heh. Well i don't have stomach ache now so i think it was fine. Ahh i'll really miss all the J2s lehh. I just realised that this bunch of J2s are like the only seniors i have ever had. Not really counting like PSLs or OGLs that kind la. Er first 1.5 years in hockey was like rubbish coz sec 1s were totally not close to sec 2s at all. I can't even remember all their names -.- Anyway, yes so it's really sad and unfair that we only get to have such a short period of time with them. Essentially, we only spent about 5 months singing with them. Sigh. But i guess life's like that. Can't really do much except to treasure what little we have, make the most out of the remaining time, and try to in some way, keep what we had even after it's over. So hopefully i won't lose contact with J2s and meet them once in a while for the rest of this year, and hope the J2s come back and visit us a lot next year!! Yayy.

Aiya okay anyway i've got like tons of lost and found in my house now. Quite a few people left behind their things haha so i guess i gotta bring them to school next week. I'll probably make a list later. Then got some stuff is like dunno who's one coz it's random slippers, clothes, and there's even like 1 earring somewhere. Kk maybe i'll take photos of them or something then email everyone and see if anybody claims them wahaha. Oh, seems like one of my stuff is missing too. The table which the tv was put on had like 1 huge pig, 1 platter of pink pigs, and 1 figurine of 6 pigs moulded together. The last one is missing. Anybody seen it anywhere? Because it's apparently >10 years old and my mum's realy upset that it's gone. =(

Okay i go watch national day parade now. See ya all soon!!

Heyy. Okay how ironic, that after the previous post, i suddenly do feel like blogging after all. I've had like the worst 2 days in a long time, and they just had to come consecutively. But i realised that both days were terrible because of terrible timing issues. Sigh.

Yesterday was like supposed to celebrate mum's birthday. So usually we always have dinners right, but then brother supposedly had game at night, so move to afternoon lunch. Then oops already called venue comm to come decor house, so bo pian anyway no time. So then so pai seh had to leave them at my house while i went to eat lunch. Come back, my stoopid brother dunno run where, then i had haircut appointment at 4pm. Then he come and come back at 345, then supposed to cut cake. Then i accidentally dropped the stupid camera in the car, so spent time finding, then burst couldn't find. Then my spastic brother spastic then angry or what shit then just left. -.- Then after he left we found the cam. By then everyone angry liao lor anyway i was late for haircut so left to cut hair. Not a single picture for my mum's birthday this year.

Today got RGS choir concert, wanted to go for damn long then come out got rehearsal for prometheum day. Then end up end at like 7pm then like damn spastic la no choice come home stone while everyone go and watch the concert at 730. Coz like by the time if rush there also end up 8pm then can reach also so lame. So now i'm stoning here while the entire world is enjoying themself. Sigh.

Doesn't help that i haven't had 8 hours of sleep the whole of last week, and the weekend, and last night. So i think i might just go and sleep at 10pm later. Thank god my sister doesn't have to work tomorrow so i can squeeze out half an hour more of sleep.

Anyway. On to happier stuff =) THANKS GERALD you're really such a great friend. Thanks for accompanying me so many times when i feel down and need a friend to talk to. And esp all the times when i have cravings for coffee and you don't and you just follow me to coffee bean anyway and just sit there and watch me eat, and also like today when i had to eat dinner then you practically walked to j8 like a total of 3 times. =)

I'm like really glad i made the random (it really was) decision to join RV at the end of sec 3, because it has really changed my life a lot. I can safely say that most of my best friends come from there, and every week, every month, i'm still growing closer and closer to all of them (yes really) and getting to know them better and loving all of them even more =). Yayy. And of course the joy of singing and music and everything. I think out of the musical groups, choir is especially special because we ourselves are essentially the instruments. We don't need to carry around heavy double basses, or perhaps even light violins. All we have to do is open our mouth and just sing (it's obviously not that easy but you get the idea). And best of it all is that everyone's voice is unique to him or her. SIDETRACK -Oh omg Yong Feng if you're reading this i think your voice is DAMN nice. - And yet we can all come together and form this blend of music which when perfect, is really just so wonderful and when i hear nice sound, i never fail to be happy and brightened up. It's not like a psychological happy feeling, it's a real inside can feel everything lifting kind of happy. It's hard to tell. It's diff from the joy of hearing a nice overtone, or perfect chord, it's also taking into account what comes behind that. The hard work, the practice, the thinking and process. Really just to sing a song, there's so much to put in place. Tuning, rhythm are the basics. Followed by having tone, and dynamics. And then there are all the minute and behind-the-scenes techniques we use to get the perfect sound and blend. And the wonder of it all is that we can do this all within our body, without requiring an external instrument.

It could also be due to this reason that many people may think that singing is really easy. Because since everyone has the instrument already, so what makes us so special from others? I don't really know and i can't really tell. I think i'm still on the quest of finding out. It could be for this same reason too, that many people tend to stare whenever people sing. But yet, do people stare when you hear people practising for band, or a random person playing violin? If your voice is like an instrument, then it's as good as playing the violin or horn or trumpet or perhaps even better. Ah, but i guess maybe people stare coz the person is singing totally out of tune xD. But ok whatever.

Everyone has to make mistakes in order to improve. But i always wonder sometimes whether people are afraid of making the mistakes itself, or afraid of what might happen to them if they make a mistake. It may seem like the same thing, but i don't really think so. Because in different circumstances, people are willing to make mistakes, while in other circumstances, the same people aren't. I think that many of us including myself have to get over this phobia of making mistakes, or the phobia of what may come after the mistake. Things really aren't as scary as they seem. We're all here together to learn and improve. And if we don't dare to be bold and loud and expressive, how can we really truly see our full potential? Yes we may blunder, but after correcting ourselves, we may discover we can do things we never would have known we could do if we didn't fail in the first place.

Hm i'm listening to Soleram now, and it's my ultimate emo song. It's really nice, though quite simple. But it's always like that, simple songs sometimes are even harder to make them nice. Ah but the previous batch did a good job =) Ah whatever okay i'm getting happier haha though i'm really tired. I think i'll go sleep soon. 15 more minutes to 10pm. Seems like nobody's home yet. Ah well, nevermind. xD. Hopefully the rest of this week will go real well. Especially farewell on wednesday!! Okay, everyone pray for no rain for tomorrow (nat day celeb) and wednesday!!

See ya all soon. =D

YO. I am back after a million years. Though i don't really know what to blog about though. Wah been really busy, especially in the last week, didn't manage to sleep enough every night heh. But finally it's saturday!! And i managed to sleep 9 hours last night! Ah. Okay but tomorrow cannot coz got people coming over at 730am tomorrow -.- Omgosh. Decorating the house. xD.

-10 years later-

Okay i really don't know what to blog about. So i'll just end here before i accidentally close this window. =)

OH MY GOD. I HAVE CLASS ADVENTURE CAMP TOMORROW. I ONLY REMEMBERED THAT I HAVE CLASS ADVENTURE CAMP TOMORROW THIS AFTERNOON. FREAK. I'M TOTALLY NOT READY TO BE PULLED OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE AND THROWN INTO SOME RANDOM PLACE ON EARTH CALLED PULAU UBIN AND HAVING TO SLEEP ON THE BEACH. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Okay i shall go and pack my bag now. See all of you on Tuesday night!! Woot i miss both chem and physics SPA as well as my first physics H3. Not sure if that's good or bad. -ponders-

1st week of school

Hallo! Phew i am proud of myself for successfully surviving to Thursday. I have 1 more day to go before the first week of (real) school is over!! I got back dreadful and not-so-dreadful results so far. But hee i'm so not going to tell you what i got.

Ah today had make-up GP and i was practically falling asleep half the time because it was in com lab and i was right at the back then couldn't really hear what teacher was saying in the first place. She was going through the essays for our GP common test and i was just staring and not really absorbing anything that she was saying? Yar. Bad me.

Whee i took bus home with julian because driver was busy fetching my sister. But my walk in was kinda cut short halfway coz they happened to drive by so i hopped in and was relieved of the hot sun heh.

Oh my gosh i'm so super tired. But i'm happy that i finally didn't fall asleep in lectures today. Last 2 days both got fall asleep at 1 point or another. Bleh. NOT good way to start the term 3. I shall attempt to sleep super early at like 10pm or something tonight (i say that every night) then can sleeeeeeep and then totally be awake and focussed for class tomorrow. =) Ha i only have 4 periods tmr so slack finish at 1130am =)))).

-Yawnz- It's been super hot in Singapore lately. Every time morning go to school once get out of car will start to sweat. I think it's also like super humid. So it's just simply annoying. I can't wait for it to like have one big fat huge rainshower then it'll be sooo nice =). Oh but then again, i complain that the class aircon is too cold all the time. -.- Hm. To what extent is my typical day at school too cold? xD.

As you can tell it's the time of the day where i become random (which is the reason why i blog in the first place because blogging is very random to me). Hmmmm.. Bleh but i've run out of random ideas. Okay yay then i shall go and find something to do now then. I need water. Very thirsty. Kk bye bye =)